On My Own Confusions

Confusion: Sixteen

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I was immediately discharged since it wasn't a major operation. Lerv is with me as we drove home.

"Give me your key. Babalikan ko sasakyan mo pagkatapos kitang ihatid."

Tumango lang ako at inabot ang bag ko. My left arm is painful as I move. The doctor did cut my sleeved blouse just so they can get in touch with my arm and surround a bandage on it. It feels heavy.

Lerv did nothing but stayed quiet during the ride. Nahihirapan din ako kausapin siya kasi pakiramdam ko ay may mali ako. The fact that it really happened when I was with him while suspecting him as one of the reasons behind my shooting incidents was such a coincidence. Pero nabura sa isip ko na may posibilidad na siya nang sinabi niya na tutulong siya sa imbestigasyon.

After all, people are innocent until proven guilty.

Nang nakarating kami sa bahay ay walang pasabi si Lervint na sumakay sa sasakyan na naghihintay sa gate ng bahay namin. I figured out, it was Nic. He asked for help?

Binalewala ko nalang at pumasok na ako sa bahay. Minutes later, I saw Rom calling me.

"Yes?" Sagot ko.

"Sorry, Leigh. I wasn't with you when you were discharged. I should've stayed but Shin's father called. Shin called as well. I wasn't sure what's their matter but I had to respond. I apologize," mahabang sabi niya.

Shin...

Shin del Rosario. She's one of the lawyers under my firm. But she moved out after giving me her resignation paper. I saw them talking as well in my firm's building before. What's their connection?

Umiling ako para maalis sa isip ko ang mga bagay. "No, it's okay. Thank you for your help earlier."

The call didn't last long. As if I want us to talk longer. I received a text somehow from him.

Rom:

I'll visit you once you're good to work.

Huh?

He'll be at my office by then? I don't want it. Lervint is working in my office. If he'll visit me there, it will be too awkward considering that Lerv has an affection to me and I'm there entertaining other people!

But. . . we're not together. Is there something I should be guilty about?

Oh right! Lervint resigned. Though, the effectivity will be after a week but realizing that he resigned still hasn't sank unto me. What should I do then?

Gusto ko tanungin si Lerv kung posible ba na bawiin niya nalang ang resignation letter niya. But I would be too selfish for that. He seeks for personal growth. It's true that he didn't utilize well his degree during his years in my firm. He should be working on tech companies.

That puts a question to my mind. Is he applying for positions in any tech companies in the Philippines or is he going abroad? I don't think he had time for that when all he did these past days was to stick with me because of the outing and such.

Pumasok na ako sa loob at umupo. I looked at my arm and I almost laughed after realizing about it. It doesn't hurt that much but my ego felt like it was stomped. I haven't had my guards up before because I was confident that no one will go against me. I was used to the minor threats but now that this happened, I admit it's a bit scary.

Who knows what will happen next?

Still, even after this incident, I don't want to tell my family. Without hesitation, Lem would fly immediately if he'll know. My Mom would hesitate though because of Zia.