On My Own Confusions

Confusion: Eighteen

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Nasa isip ko na wala na akong kailangan kay Rom. Not even his affection to me. What I feel to him has gone a step further than it should be and I hold myself accountable for it. I felt it towards him and I will never deny it. But then, the more I inch myself to him, the riskier my life will be.

I asked Rom to leave the house after it. He asked for a chance to stay to talk about the investigation, but I didn't let him. The gentleman in him followed what I asked him.

Nakita ko agad si Nic nang pumasok siya sa pinto. His brows met while his forehead creased the moment he saw me. He might not know what's going on.

"Bakit mo pinaalis?"

I shrugged at his question.

"Nic, hindi ko alam kung makukuha ko ba ang hustisya nitong problema na ’to," I admitted.

I sound defeated. All I want to do right now is to cut ties with Rom to make all of this stop kahit pa man walang kasiguradan na titigilan nga nila ako. Malalim ngunit mabagal ang aking paghinga dahil sa lahat ng aking iniisip.

Nic neared me and sat in the seat in a minimal distance.

"Alam mo kung ano ang solusyon kaya wala sa isip mo na magsampa ng kaso kahit man malaman mo na lahat ng hinala mo ay totoo. Tama?" Tanong niya na napatango naman ako.

"Then, let's put an end to this. Ask those who texted you to meet for an agreement. Halos naman lahat ng mensahe ay ang hiling lamang ay layuan mo si Rom, hindi ba?" Kalmadong sabi niya.

Nic's got a point. Sana nga lang madali makipag-usap sa mga taong makikitid ang utak. Surely, the one who does this is narrow minded. Kung ano man ang nasa isip niya na ugnayan namin ni Rom at naging hadlang ’yon para sa kanya, wala akong kinalaman doon. But he or she is an imbecile, that's why this is their resort.

"I would love to do that. But we should do it smoothly. Maayos sana na pag-uusap. Baka mamaya, bigla akong barilin. That would be too bad," I laughed after I said it.

Surely, there's nothing for me to be laughing about.

"Other than that, don't you want to search for the snipers who shot you? The mastermind may not done it themselves, but they have their accomplice. Someone might turn themselves in especially if the reward's high." Nic suggested.

Isa pa ’yan. The thought of the gun's bullet is still lingering in my mind. When speaking of Shin, it's possible that she have her father do the commands knowing how her father is influential due to his position and they can cover themselves anytime. Plus, their family is flawless than you can never put the blame on them. Surely, there are still holes.

About the issue between me staying away from Rom, it's possible as well that Mr. Velez is behind it. Especially when he wanted Rom to marry his daughter but Rom declined.

Ano na ba ’tong sinasabi ko? I don't have any evidence yet about my hunches but I'm here almost already claiming the truths. Innocent until proven guilty right, Leigh? But why am I here already accusing who's the culprit?

Just thinking about it already loses the professionalism in me. Just thinking about it feels so illegal and I should have been cuffed for misinformation and false accusations. But deep in me, I know that most of my hunches are right. I hope it is!

"Puwede rin. But the reward will only be given if they'll speak about their mastermind, of course," I responded to Nic's suggestion.

He smirked at that. "Well then, I guess that's for today? For now, keep your distance with Rom."