Words She Kept Under My Pillow

Ocean

I was an ocean the world called me one

My waves are always at war with each other like yours

Many creatures played and cried during the war but never complained

I smiled but cried at the same time so that they don't feel alone

I tired my best to give them comfort so that I don't feel like I want to die

I try not to hate myself so that people don't hate me

So that the creatures don't hate me

I tired not to cry and smile but then smile seemed too unrealistic

The red water in me cried and somehow poured out

I somehow was surrounded with red and only red

I thought the color of the rain changed

But no it was me who bleed and bleed and bleed

And eventually nothing left for me to bleed

I lay down with tears in my eyes but still with a smile

I can be free now the butterflies will take me away with them

Somewhere I don't recognize and somewhere people won't recognize me 

I smiled and closed my eyes thinking of the path the butterflies will lead me

The butterflies didn't lead me anywhere they left me haunted

They didn't came and I felt betrayed

All over again