Words She Kept Under My Pillow

It's not true

I asked whether I could be my true self in front of you

I asked for your permission for being me

And you said yes

I was happy

But made me said in an instant

You spread lies about me

With the way I am

You broke me, so that you could have what I do and you don't

Rumor's, lips and disgust

Everywhere, you lied

You were nice, I was nicer

But you faked them all while mine were true

I never faked a smile when it came to you which you did a over a million times

If you hated me you could have said, so

And I won't be so hurt

I knew it was hard and unbelievable from the start

How can you love me, when I am literally you painted in a different color

But I had everything you could ever dream of to call yours

Its not my fault they choose me, is it?

I wasn't to blame that they liked me and not you

When you were the one always by their side

And I was nowhere to be found