Words She Kept Under My Pillow

You named us

I saw many holding hands with a smile so proud

I get blinded often

They had names for each other

But honey and babe were common to my ear

Some people looked at them with jealousy

Some with awe and some with hatred

They had names except for babe and honey

People called them differently when they were together

Holding hands looking so sweet

Not a couple nobody uses that name anyway

But boyfriend and girlfriend where the girl isn't just a friend and nor is the boy

So popular but mixed with embarrassment and hints of guilt

Guilt to their ex lovers and embarrassment for holding hands together

The name came with responsibilities and priorities

Which you refused to take and I, afraid to give

You loved me like any other partner would

But refused to take responsibilities that came with it

You never named us not that I wanted to be named

We kept it a secret and not private

It wasn't, people know you are mine

But nobody knew and you were open to option

I wasn't an option

I had options too but I rejected them which you didn't

I was scared and at the end of the day right too

I used to convince people that you were different

But you proved them right and me wrong

It wasn't fair

But life has never been fair anyway.