Words She Kept Under My Pillow

We shouldn't have meet

I wear the ring upside down

And not the other way around

Because it is the way you like to see it

And I wear

It's disgusting and harsh

For me to dress for someone else's validation

But I can't help it because it's you

I can't help my eyes when it's yours they long to see

I wish they were never created

So that I could never see you

I wish I was deaf and mute

So that I won't reply to or hear your voice

It's killing and admiring

But disgusting and worst to be exact

I never would have known

And you would have never existed for me

Nor for anyone else I knew

I wish I had never meet you

I wish the stars hadn't aligned that night

Or the night after

The moon wouldn't have known about your voice

Or about the way you dance

She would have known none of them

At least not from me

Might be from someone else but not from me

I wish we could rewind time

Go back in the past

And stop me from walking up to you

The younger I, could feel your stares as we talked

You planned it all

You had someone else in your mind but suddenly you had me How is that possible? It isn't suppose to be

You trapped me into believing that you loved me

When you never even cared

I was the only girl who didn't cared about your existence

But now you made me long for you each night

When I should be focusing on me instead