Isn't it weird and awkward for you?
We weren't suppose to be friends let alone more than friends
You did something worse and ruined everything I ever had
Every time you said you would change and I gave you a chance
I made a mistake I couldn't erase
I don't want to end up like the ones with alcohol and drugs in their veins
And it scares me that I might end up like them
Red eyes and open lips
I don't want to find myself among them
I never belong with people who are crazy
I don't want to be crazy and alcoholic and mad
I'm scared what if, what I did wasn't worth what I want
I cried for days when you said you loved her
And she said she loved you too
I don't want you to search for her in me
When I'm nothing like her
You should have gone to her when I gave you the chance
Not like this
You made me, you manipulated me into thinking I'm wrong but you weren't right either
You should have chosen her not me if what you truly wanted was her
Why can't you just choose?
Even though I know it would hurt me
At least it won't be long lasting
Anything would be crueller than this
Then why do I think that I shouldn't have chosen you?
YOU ARE READING
Words She Kept Under My Pillow
PoetryI looked at the butterflies surrounding my body They floated in air and smiled and decorated my skin with their wings They took flight with me in their arms I know its too unrealistic to be true They feared that fire might englobe me whole and ta...
