December 25th, 2022
Next Morning
Ayariah Chanel Jackson-Anthony
"Mommy, wake up"
"I said wait nigga"
I fluttered my eyes open and rolled over to my other side. All I see is Nezhai jumping in the bed. I wish he would stop, but I be jumping with him sometimes, so I can't say much.
"Good morning, beautiful"
I sat up a little, rubbing my face. Semaj placed a couple of bags on the bed and held a bouquet of flowers in his hand. It's too early to be crying, but fuck.
"Shaude" I spoke in a quavering voice.
"You ain't gotta cry, it's more in the living room" Maj smiled.
I smiled and wiped the tear from my eye before it could fall. God I love his smile. That shit is so contagious.
"Well, I know that" I chuckled.
"We going to Santa's enchanted forest tonight, so you got time to do your hair" He licked his lips.
"You just had to mention my hair right?"
"I wasn't even planning on telling you, but I know you gone wanna get cute and shit" He shrugged.
"That's real fucked up" I scratched my head, through my bonnet.
"Open" Zhai handed me a bag.
Taking the bag, I pulled out a red Cartier box. I glanced up at Maj and bit down on my lip. I'm scared to open this shit cause he already be spending money on me like ain't no tomorrow. So who knows how much he spent on this shit.
"Just open it" Maj chuckled.
I opened the box, "Oh my god, this shit is- bae, no"
I closed the box and looked at him, as tears flowed down my face. He licked his lips and backed up, walking to the closet. When he came out, he opened a box and showed me a matching watch.
"Match my drip"
"Bae, this is too much and I didn't even look at everything else" I rested my hand on the side of my face. "I don't even think I spent as much as you did"
"I don't care how much you spent. As long as I got you, I'm good" He grabbed another bag.
Maj took out a box and opened it, handing it to Zhai. Zhai started jumping again with the biggest smile on his face. Laughing, I sat up completely. I already know what it is because I was with Maj when he got it. After Zhai wanted to wear my watch and Maj chain in Atlanta, we decided to get him a chain.
"Tanks da"
"Go open what's under that tree" Maj chuckled.
Zhai jumped off the bed and ran out of the room. Maj got down on his knees and held my hand.
"Please don't tell me it's another ring. You just gave me a new one two weeks ago" I pulled my hand away from him.
"I swear it's not, but before we go out there I gotta tell you something. It's not the right day to say this, but I need you to stick with me after this"
"What did you do?" I asked, my voice a little shaky.
I don't know what he is about to say, but I'm scared to hear him out. Whatever it is, he probably can't wait to tell me. I just hope it's something that won't ruin my day.
He let out a deep sigh. I can tell he's scared of what my reaction is going to be and I would be too. He grabbed both my hands and held them tightly.
"So that day Tasha came with her kids, she told me the lil nigga was mine. But-"
"Are you fucking kidding me?" I cut him off.
I attempted to pull my hands away from him, but he tightened his grip. My eyes watered up from both being upset and how tight he was holding my hands.
"Bae, let me explain" His voice cracked.
"Explain what? How you got another kid? I don't wanna fucking hear how that shit happened"
"Bae come on man" He stood up, still holding my hands.
"Maj I swear if you don't let me go-" I sniffed, trying to keep my tears in.
"I told you what would happen if you did, but with her? The bitch you wanted me to be cool with?" I added.
"I swear I ain't know" He kissed my forehead.
He attempted to kiss my lips, but I turned my face. Trying to refrain from kicking him, I yanked my hand away from him. He gripped my other hand tighter.
"I ain't know, okay?"
Although his voice cracking the way it is, is hurting my heart, I know that if I stay in front of him any longer I just might hurt him. That's one thing I don't want to do right now and I'm not going to stress myself and my baby out because of this. I just need to get away from him so I can think clearly before I put my hands on him.
"Semaj let me go" I cried.
I glanced up at him and a tear fell down his face. He quickly wiped it, letting my hand go. Hearing the sound of little feet running, I wiped my face and went to the bathroom.
"Mommy loo- da sad?"
"Nah, im good" Maj cleared his throat. "Let's go finish opening your stuff. We'll bring the rest of her stuff in here later"
Closing the bathroom door behind me, I allowed my tears to flow down my face.
On this day of all days, he had to tell me this shit. Not only that, I'm just waking up and I gotta hear this shit. I told him, I would leave him if a bitch came out talking bout they had his kid. I honestly didn't think that would happen for real, but now I'm standing on what I said. I love him, but I'll do it from a distance if I have to. I refuse to be an add on baby momma.
