August 20th, 2023
Same Day
Semaj Shaude Brown
I've been real fucked up these past five months. I literally ain't been myself since Ayariah left me, so I've just been fucking up left and right. I ain't been fucking with Tasha since I was finally able to see A'sair, three months ago. Ayariah really hurt a nigga, making me wait two months to see him. I ain't reach out because she said she hated a nigga, I just kept my distance. For the most part at least. I'd try calling in the middle of the night or having Kemiah give her whatever I bought for her and A'sair. Of course, anything that was for her, she didn't take it.
I don't even know if she fucking with another nigga or not. Jo told me she ain't really been fucking with that nigga Tre lately. Vonta overheard the girls talking about some nigga on the football team at the University, so I really don't know. I really been losing it because I don't know shit she got going on. She ain't been on live since the baby shower, she ain't been posting, and I don't got her location. I know she moved into her own space again, but I don't know where. De know but won't tell me.
Also, I've only been able to see A'sair when he's at madukes crib which is lowkey fucked up. Ayariah doesn't even tell me when she going over there or gone drop him off. I gotta hear it from my momma or Miah. Sometimes he's gone before I even get there. Nezhai has been bad as fuck since Yari's been gone too. He been real quiet, but sneaky and doing shit he ain't got no business doing. Everything's just been fucked up.
After leaving the graveyard, everybody headed to a restaurant so we could eat. I lowkey ain't wanna come out with everybody, but De kinda talked me into it. The whole time we was there, Ayariah was moving like I wasn't even there. Shit hit different knowing my past fucked up something good.
"Jit walk" I lightly pushed Zhai.
"When my momma coming back?" Dayvon asked.
Hopefully, soon cause this little nigga talk too much, I thought to myself. Tasha left him at my crib last night. She's supposed to be getting him today, so they can go back to New York tonight. Once I stopped fucking with her she decided to actually go and she's taking him with her. I don't understand how this nigga my son and talk so damn much. I barely speak to anybody, but Tasha is such a damn social butterfly she wanna know everybody.
"Tonight," I said opening the restaurant door.
I walked in after they did, meeting everybody right up front.
"Jit 23 with 3 kids, I'd lose my shit too," De said.
I slapped the back of his neck. He quickly turned around and rubbed his neck. Every time I pop up when muhfuckas talking bout me, he's the first one I hear saying some shit.
"I'm sick of this shit, you poe ass bitch"
"You work for me, talking bout poe" I pushed him.
I glanced at Yari and she rolled her eyes. Zhai tapped my leg repeatedly, but I ignored him. My eyes wandered down Yari's body, taking in every inch of her. Her snapback go crazy. Her stomach is just as flat as it was when I met her, but the ass and titties she gained while pregnant are still there.
She turned her back to me and her ass moved, making my dick twitch. She grabbed A'sair from Cleo and placed a blanket over her shoulder, covering his face. The thought of having her in my mouth crossed my mind but quickly vanished when Zhai stepped on my shoes.
"Nigga what the fuck is you doing?" I hit his shoulder.
He looked up at me and pointed towards Yari, with watery eyes. Him being a crybaby ain't gone ever change.
