March 20th, 2023
A Month Later
Within the last month, Tasha decided to stay in Florida so that her son, Dayvon, could be closer to Semaj and Nezhai. Just because Dayvon and Nezhai actually got along quickly and seemed to like each other. Semaj and Tasha also started seeing each other again. Tasha didn't want to be the reason Ayariah left him, but she ended up being just that.
Ayariah, on the other hand, moved into her new apartment and is still spending a little bit of time with Tremaine, every few days. Although he is showing her that he wants to be with her, she doesn't know if she's ready to move on. She's also distanced herself completely from Semaj's family and friends. Although Uzziah is her cousin, she's been a little distant from him too. Tiffany has been on Semaj about bringing Tasha to the baby shower and showing up when it was supposed to be ending.
Tiffany loved Semaj the most out of her kids because he was her oldest, but lately, he hasn't been her favorite. Mainly because he let Ayariah down and allowed her to walk away.
Ayariah Chanel Jackson-Anthony
The sound of a baby cry made me smile, as I continued to cry and take deep breaths.
"What are you going to name him?" The doctor asked, gently placing my son in my arms.
Sniffling, I thought about which name I was going to go with. I never decided because I still had one more month, or at least I thought I did. I'm only 8 months, but he decided to come out now.
"A'sair Shau-" I paused and looked at Jo.
Jo is actually in here with me because I went into labor at his barbershop. The only other people who know besides him are Assiah, Amari, and Tremaine. I begged him not to call Semaj and the girls.
"You gone give him his name? That's still his blood regardless of how you feel"
"You don't have to name him now. I'll give you time to think about it" the nurse said before leaving.
I looked down at A'sair and rubbed his tiny hand. Jo was right about Semaj still being his blood, which was why he was going to have Maj's middle and last name. But I am having second thoughts. Maj hasn't been here for me in three months.
"What you wanna do?" Jo asked.
"You can tell him"
"I knew you wasn't heartless" He smiled, as he backed away.
He wanted to tell Maj so bad. His ass is a little too happy to tell this nigga that our baby is here. I hate that for him.
Not long after Jo left the room, Siah, Mari, and Tre walked in. I'm not surprised that Tre is still here because he's been lowkey tryna shower me with gifts. I've been turning them down because that's what Maj did right before he ruined Christmas for me. So I haven't been accepting anything from anybody.
"Let me see Neph" Siah clapped.
"I thought yo ass was gone die the way you was screaming before they made us leave" Mari joked.
"Shh and watch your mouth" I whispered.
"Why you whispering?" Mari whispered.
"He's sleeping" I ran my finger across A'sair's cheek.
He moved his head a little and licked his lips. He has my skin complexed and Maj's nose. Definitely has Maj's lips, but I wanna see if he has pretty eyes like me when he opens them. I'm not mad that he got Maj features because I already knew he might come out looking like Maj. Maj's family genes are strong and I know that from meeting some of them at the baby shower. I was lowkey surprised that they flew out from Jamaica to meet me.
"Uh- you cool with him bringing-" Jo said coming back in the room, but quickly cut himself off. Siah turned and gave him a look, but I couldn't see.
"You not leaving alive if you bring shorty. Drop her off on the side of the road or sum" Jo rubbed the back of his neck.
"Nigga I'm not finna be getting into with them for you" Jo walked out of the room.
If Maj thinks I'm okay with him bringing that girl, he might as well not come. I was doing him a favor by giving A'sair his name. I honestly don't want Maj in the room, I just want him to sign the birth certificate. But we all know Maj gone wanna see A'sair.
*****
After almost an hour, Semaj finally walked into the room. I gave the nurse A'sair's name when Maj got here about five minutes ago. I just asked that he waited five minutes before walking in.
As soon as I looked up, I locked eyes with Maj. I can't really tell if he's mad or not, but I have a feeling he is. He walked towards me slowly and brushed his finger across his nose.
"Ima step out," Tre said, leaving from my side.
"Smart" Maj mumbled.
Tre didn't say anything. He just shook his head and left the room. Glancing down at A'sair, I watched as he stopped sucking my breast for a second and latched his mouth back on.
"You fucking with him now?"
"You can go back out," I said before biting the side of my lip.
"I'm asking, so I know if he gone be round my jit" Maj touched my chin.
I leaned my head back a little, "I don't want you touching me"
"Don't be like that"
"You asking me about another man when you've been messing around with the same bi- mmm girl you wanted me to be cool with after I just pushed out a whole baby. Your baby at that. I didn't want you here in the first place nor was I going to give him your name or even tell you I had him, but I did because I'm not a bitter ass bitch" I whispered angrily.
"You right" He nodded his head.
"Oh I know and unlike you, I still haven't been with nobody else. Despite how much I hate you right now, I still love and have respect for your stupid ass. But clearly, it ain't the same with you. You made a promise and broke it. So get a good look at him because you not gone be seeing him whenever you want"
"You can't do that" He licked his lips, as his eyes dropped.
"Says who?"
"Says the bitch that's talking bout she not fucking bitter" He slightly raised his voice.
A'sair removed his mouth from my breath and started whining. I fixed myself up and adjusted him in my arms, before gently patting his back.
"Get out" I spoke lowly, as my voice cracked.
"Yari, I ain't mean-"
"I don't wanna hear it, so go" I wiped the tear from my eye before it fell.
"Bae come on, I ain't mean to say it like that" Maj got on his knees and placed his arm over my thighs.
"I really don't wanna do this with you and I'm asking nicely. I was hoping you came in here all happy and shit, but clearly, I can never get what I want. So again can you please just go" I rubbed A'sair's back.
I glanced down at Maj and he flicked a tear away, as he stood up to leave. This is the second time I've seen a tear fall from his face. But honestly, I don't even feel bad because I was trying to do the right thing, but he came in here with a fucked up attitude.
That fairytale love I wanted, has officially gone down the drain. I hate to say it, but I don't think I'll ever get that. Especially now since the one person I love can't even get his shit together, so we could try to make it work. I thought I was his person and he was mine, but these past couple of months have shown me otherwise. He's officially made me hate him and I never thought I would.
