Ignite My Soul

Chapter 26 - Picking up the pieces.

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Take your time

Baby, don't you rush a thing

Don't you know, I know

We all are struggling

I know it is hard

But we will get by

And if you don't believe in me

Just believe in "Him"

Cause He'll give you peace of mind

Yes, He will

And you'll see the sunshine

For real, yes, you would

And you'll get to free your mind

And things will turn out fine

Oh, I know that things will turn out fine

Yes, they would, yes they would

If you looked in my life

And see what I've seen...

If you looked in my life

And see what I've seen...

If you looked in my life

And see what I've seen...

If you looked in my life

And see what I've seen...

All you gotta do is take your time,

One day at a time

It's all on you

what you gonna do?

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2 months later...

This is my second last trip before I leave Jozi. I have told my mom that I have been seconded to another Province for 2 years. I mean, that should be enough time to mend my broken heart and gain my pride back. To the outsiders, I am smiling and looking happy. Deep down, I feel like my heart is in pieces, and blood is leaking everywhere. Sometimes, the pain fills up my stomach, and I don't feel like eating. Sometimes, it fills up my lungs, and I feel so much pain I cannot breathe.

Other than the breakup with Khaya, I am still going through some grief regarding Kgadi. Lesedi and I have stopped speaking to each other, and the office has felt like a war zone lately. So many things I used to identify with seem to be falling apart. I just need a break from it all.

I am in Uganda for work. From the moment I land at Entebbe International, I feel a sense of hope and freedom from my thoughts. We go through the search before getting to customs, and it is quite intense because of all the attacks happening in Kenya and the extra military presence. It's funny that I am at ease and not panicking. Maybe it is my nonchalant attitude at the moment.

The shuttle takes me to the Hilton Hotel in the centre of Kampala, and the views from my room on the 11th floor are amazing. Hilton Hotel, in any City I have been to, looks amazing, and that is the power of maintaining brand identity.

I am grateful for the comfort and beauty, as I will get to call this room my home for the next 14 days. I arrived on a Sunday, and my return flight will depart on Sunday the following week at 4 am. The office I work from is 15 minutes away, and I have a driver who will pick me up and drop me off every day. I will be running most of the sessions but also use them to upskill local staff.

What I love most about this country is how they are still sticking to Ubuntu. The people are warm and welcoming, ready and willing to show you around the neighbourhood.