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23.07.21 RED EYES

JK POV:

It's been 6 days. Y/N hasn't called me. I have never felt so alone in my life. The worst part of it is not knowing if she is ok or not. I just want to hear her sweet voice. I started getting a cold the day I left. I hoped she isn't sick like me. I wish I could send her a get well care package. I want to spoil her. I've been going crazy. Why hasn't she called me?

Low key, I have literally cried myself to sleep every night. ARMY asked me in my live why my eyes were red. I blamed it on the cold. I miss her terribly. I knew I shouldn't have left her like that. She probably thinks everything I told her that night was all talk. I don't even have a way to get a hold of her. My manager has been on my case trying to snap me out of this funk. We all know there's only one way for me to feel better and since she hasn't reached out to me, I can't help but feel hopeless. JK, hopelessly in love. FUUUUCK, I'm so frustrated.

I've had to perform Seven twice already and ARMY asked me to sing it on my live the other day as well. I fucking hate that song now. All I can think about when I perform it is when we were on the rooftop and Y/N was teasing me copying my choreo. I even had to turn around during The One performance to stop from tearing up.

Well it is my last day here and I had dinner and drinks with everyone that's been working with me on this promotion. It was nice, but honestly I just want to get back to Korea and sulk. Maybe the boys can pull me out of this funk. I'm desperate for her. I just hope she is ok. Every part of me misses her and is worried about her. I miss her scent, her laugh, her smile, her beautiful eyes. I just want to sleep for the rest of my life. At least when I'm asleep I can dream of her.

My insomnia has been really bad. I need help. Get it together JK.

Call me my angel please.....

I love you...

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