Jungkook FanFic
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"You're really making this hard for me, aren't you?" Y/N playfully pouting her lips as she asked.
I smirked, raised my eyebrow, and replied, "I was about to ask you the same thing..." while jokingly adjusting the noti...
I woke up with a pout realizing it was just Bam and I alone in the house. I checked my phone to see if he tried to reach me or not. He didn't. I hated this feeling. I assumed he was still mad at me for something I have no control over. I didn't mention this before, but I already spoke to Yoona about Andy and she confirmed that she noticed it to. She said she already started looking for a replacement since the first meeting. God, I love her so much. She knows me so well.
Jungkook's listening party was about to start so I got on call with my besties. They were excited. Mae noticed I was being quiet and said, "Spill it Y/N. What's wrong?" I didn't realize how much this was affecting me because I suddenly broke down and tears were rolling down my face. I told them how he acted towards me when I went to talk to him in the shower. Lemmy made me laugh by asking how he looked in the shower. I couldn't stop laughing as I told her. I told them that I think he was upset about the new guy that's on my team and they agreed with me that he is being ridiculous.
"No matter how ridiculous we all think it is, his feelings are his feelings guys. Yoona is already looking for a replacement. I didn't even have to ask her." I told them. Lemmy said, "All you can do now is just be patient and baby his ass I guess." We all started laughing. "You guys always make me feel better. Thank you for being there for me." I said and sent a triple hug gif.
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The listening party started and I poured myself a drink. As I got back to the office, I got on and asked if I missed anything. They were both quiet and Mae said, "This doesn't mean anything, but he said that there is alot of cute ARMY in the chat today." I almost choked on my drink. I coughed and said "Whaaaat?" Lemmy said, "You know how he is... I'm sure it's nothing." I couldn't help but feel like he was being an ass and trying to get back at me thinking I was flirting back with Andy. I laughed it off and just acted ok with them.
It was getting closer to the end. NGL I was pretty drunk at the moment. ARMY kept typing in the chat saying that he has a girlfriend. All of a sudden he decided to address it. He said, "I don't have a girlfriend. I'm not seeing a girl. I don't feel the need. There isn't anyone. I don't have a girlfriend. No girlfriend. Because there is no one. Yeah, ARMY is my girlfriend. I only have ARMY now. Stop it. I only have ARMY now. So don't worry about it. Ok?" My heart dropped...
I know that he has to say he doesn't girlfriend even if he does. I know that his relationships could never be public knowledge, but given the timing and everything that happened today, it just felt like a low blow to my stomach. I felt a tear roll down my cheek. I was mad. I was furious. Words wouldn't come out of my mouth. Lemmy and Mae were silent as well. I wanted to get off the call. I wanted to curl up into a ball in bed. Then I realized it's not even my bed. It's his bed. Everything here is his. I have nothing that's mine here. I wanted to leave. I'm stuck here in a country that's so unfamiliar to me. I barely speak the language. I felt trapped.
I felt like I was on the verge of a panic attack. Mae finally spoke, "Y/N, it doesn't mean anything. Don't worry. He's an idol. He has to say these things." I bit my lip trying to think of what to say. All I could get out was, "Yeah..... I know....." They both took turns trying to cheer me up saying, "It's ok." "He doesn't mean anything by it" "Just talk to him when he gets home." "Don't worry. He loves you." My only response was, "But he could have just ignored the comments. He didn't have to address it. He wanted me to hear that. I need to get out of here." My hands were shaking and I was wasted. I finished the bottle of wine. I was in no condition to leave.
I gathered my thoughts and after reassuring them I wouldn't do anything stupid, they let me get off the call. As much as I wanted to get out of there, I decided against it. I mean I really didn't have many options. I did want to talk to him, but I just needed some time to process things. I didn't want to explode in his face. I printed out the emails with Yoona about Andy being replaced and I highlighted the times of the emails so he could see that I tried to handle it before he even got upset about it. I put them on his bed. I went to the closet and put on one of his sweaters. I gathered all the blankets I could find and I made myself a little bed in the closet of the office. I was drunk and I tend to revert back to my childhood when I am left to comfort myself. I slept in my parents closet the last few days I was still in my house before I got sent to my aunt's. It comforted me laying in there with their clothes hanging above me. After that, I found myself doing this anytime I was having a hard time growing up.
I cried myself to sleep wishing he was home hugging me. I hated this awkwardness. I didn't care about Andy or anything Jungkook said on Stationhead. I just wanted to be in his arms. I wanted kisses from him. He was the only thing I considered home now. I nuzzled my face inside the sweater and fell asleep breathing in his scent.
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