Jungkook FanFic
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"You're really making this hard for me, aren't you?" Y/N playfully pouting her lips as she asked.
I smirked, raised my eyebrow, and replied, "I was about to ask you the same thing..." while jokingly adjusting the noti...
JK's been gone for 4 days now. TBH, I have been so busy working, I haven't really had a chance to stop and think about how much I really miss him. I've had Bam sleep on his side of the bed every night so Bam-ah and I can miss him together. When we spoke earlier he said he finally finished shooting. Today was his last day there and then he's going to Japan for a day to make an appearance at a Calvin Klein event before he heads home. He sent me a little clip of them dancing. God he looked so fucking sexy. I swear he gets more handsome every day.
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Namjoon texted me yesterday to check up on me and see if I wanted to have dinner or drinks with him tonight. I called JK to make sure he was ok with me doing that and he was super excited for me to spend some time with Namjoon. I actually found it cute that he genuinely wanted me to spend time with Joon. I've never been in a relationship where my boyfriend wanted me to hang out with his family or friends, even if they were girls, without him. I'm thankful that he trusts me as much as I trust him. I've always read ARMY's comments saying JK would be super toxic in a relationship, but I gotta say it is really the opposite.
Yes, we did have a weird situation with that Andy guy. He later explained to me that it made him mad and a bit jealous because when he doesn't know the other person, he starts to overthink. He thinks of all these bad fucked up situations that could happen and also shared that he's had bad experiences in past with his ex girlfriends leaving him or cheating on him with someone who can dedicate all of their time to them. He shared that he stopped dating for a while because his idol life complicates things and he always ends up getting hurt.
He said that dating is hard for him because he always feels inadequate. His career prevents him from having a normal relationship and that in the back of his mind, he's always scared that I will come to my senses and leave him for a normal guy who I can live a normal life with. He said that it kills him that I have to be a secret to the world and that it hurts him to have to openly say he doesn't have a girlfriend when he has the best girlfriend in the world. He was so cute that night we spoke about this.
I reassured him that what I want is him. Not Jungkook, the idol... Not Jungkook, a normal person. It's him. I just want him and that I know there is no one else like him... That there's no one else who could make me feel the things I feel when I'm with him... No one else who gets me like he does...I promised him that there's nothing that could happen that would change my mind... That even if he didn't want me anymore... I still would only want him. He really doesn't understand how much he's done for me without even trying. How much he's given me just by being himself... kind, pure, and unselfish... He's given me a home.. a family.. the thing most people take for granted in life... He's made me whole. He is the single puzzle piece that I lost when my parents passed away. He showed up and fit perfectly into my empty space.
I wish I could hug him right now and hear his little giggle. My phone buzzed and Namjoon texted to come down. I kissed Bam on the head and told him I'd be back later. I saw him walking back to his house as I was closing the door. I saw Namjoon standing outside the apartment door. Even with his hood on and his face practically covered by a face mask, I could still easily tell who he was. He turned around and waved at me. His eyes smiled and I could imagine the exact face he was making just by the shape of his eyes. This is kinda embarrassing and I would never tell any of them this, but as ARMY, I know BTS well. I know who's who just by seeing one feature. I can tell them apart even if I just saw their teeth or their hands, etc.
