JK POV:
It has been months since that night with Y/N. I haven't been able to forget her. I have really been struggling without her. I don't get it. I really can't understand why she never called me. I haven't been able to sleep these past 2 months. I lowkey have barely been functioning. I've been recording my album. I've had several things on my schedule: a bunch of lives, Inkigayo, and Yoongi's concert.
Y/N has never left my thoughts. For 2 of the lives the company scheduled for me, I couldn't even get out of bed. I just did them in bed, even fell asleep for one. Then there was one I literally cried on stream. I've just been so out of it. I still need her. I still only want her. The company is fed up with my shit. They even commented from my TikTok account on some of Chaewon's posts to get some dating rumors going. I literally wanted to quit thinking what if Y/N sees that. It will break her heart. The members are fed up with my shit. I messed up the lyrics at Yoongi's concert. I can't help it. It's just how I feel. I've been trying to get myself together, but her face won't leave my head. I miss the way she makes me feel.
Today is my birthday and the company is forcing me to do my yearly birthday stream. Don't get me wrong, of course I would've done it anyway. ARMY is always there for me on my birthday. I just wish Y/N was here for me too. I had dinner and drinks with the dancers I've been practicing the choreo for my next single with. My company told me today that I will be going to New York again to perform at the Global Citizens Festival on the 23rd. I really have mixed feelings. I'm not even sure how to get a hold of her once I'm there. What if she's not even in New York and is back home with her asshole boyfriend. Fuck, I fucking hate all this unknowing shit. Y/N is literally the best and worst thing to ever happen to me.
Well, I have to turn on this live now. Hopefully I can do longer than 20 mins without breaking down. ARMY knows me so well. Reading their comments on social media, I think they're starting to catch on that I'm sad. It's like they always know when something is going on with me. I wish I could just yell out on stream, "Y/N PLEASE FUCKING CALL ME. I miss you my angel pleeeease. Save me"
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