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23.09.28 SEE THRU PAJAMAS

JK POV:

I carried Y/N over to the couch. I sat down and had her straddle me. She was running her hands through my hair and just looking at my face smiling. God she is beautiful. She smirked and her fingers traced along my ears. She traced my jawline. She touched the mole under my lip and kissed it. She touched the mole on the bridge of my nose and kissed it. She ran her finger along my scar and smiled. Her fingers traced over the moles on my cheek. I just watched her in awe as her fingers felt so good against my skin. She blushed and placed her hands on my cheeks and said, "Oh my handsome Jungkook." She yawned and then I realized she must be tired due to the time difference.

She rested her head on my chest and I hugged her tightly and slid down so she was laying on top of me. She giggled with her eyes closed. I told her to take a nap and that I'd wake her up in a little bit. She looked up and nodded all sleepily. She looked like a little baby. I wanted to squeeze her and never let go. I ran my fingers through her hair and she let out a slight moan. I smirked as I started getting hard just from that little noise she made. I wanted her to rest so I started humming to her and softly rubbing her back with my fingers. I saw her eyes slightly open and the dimple on her cheek came out. About two minutes later, I felt her body relax and I could hear her softly snoring. How can someone be so cute?

God she smelled so good. I just laid there watching her sleep thinking about what's going to happen after this. My new single 3d will come out tomorrow. Then my album will be announced a few days later. I'm going to be so busy with practice. I have the Music Bank 3d performance and then all the stuff for the album. Will she stay if I ask her to? I really can not be apart from her, not again. I'll be miserable without her, but at the same time I would feel guilty if I asked her to stay and I can't even spend time with her. Then what happens once I have to enlist? She wouldn't wait two years for me, would she? Two years is really too long to expect her to wait. She can go and find someone who can provide her with all the things I can't. Someone who can give her an easy life. Someone who can take her out on dates. Someone who has a normal schedule, who isn't traveling around all the time. Someone she can have a family with..... My eyes started to tear up at the thought and I hugged her tighter worrying about if I will eventually lose her. How long until she finally gives up on me? I could already start to feel the heartbreak with just those thoughts alone.

She made a tiny noise and her her hand went to her chest like she felt my pain. She wiggled around a little then scooted herself up closer to me and put her face up to my neck. She kissed my mole and said, "Mmmm, JK. I really am so in love with you, you know? There's really no one else for me in this world. Only you. You're my whole life, my everything, really. When I thought about you moving on after that night and you being with someone else, it felt like I was empty inside. Without you I am not capable of love. My heart doesn't exist if it's not yours. Thank you for not giving up on me. Thank you for inviting me into your home, into your world. Thank you for loving me so passionately. No one will ever compare to you. I really mean that." She said all this with her eyes closed while gently nodding her head and smiling. Her hand found my hand and she intertwined my fingers into hers and fell back asleep. I closed my eyes and giggled quietly thinking how with just that little bit of love from her, all my anxieties and fears melted away. I brushed her hair behind her ear and looked down at her pretty face. I wanted to memorize everything about her. The moles on her face. The light freckles sprinkled across the tops of cheeks and nose. How pretty the shape of her lips were. The way her collar bone sticks out and makes her neck so damn sexy.

I started getting turned on and decided that I want her in my bed right now. I wrapped my arms around her tightly and got up carrying her. She woke up slightly and giggled. I pulled the blanket down and set her inside. I went to the closet to change into pajamas. I opened the drawer and my see through pajamas were on top. My thoughts instantly went dirty and I smirked thinking how fucking hot she would look in this shirt with nothing under. I pressed down on my crotch as I felt the blood rushing. I got undressed and slid the pajama pants on. I grabbed the top and brought it over to the bed. I bent down and kissed her cheek and whispered in her ear that I will change her into pajamas. She smiled and nodded and then stuck her arms up. It reminded me of the hotel room before I left New York the first time and she didn't call me. She still needs to be punished for that. I licked my lips and slid my hands up her waist.