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23.07.21 EMPTY IN CALIFORNIA

Y/N POV:

I didn't call JK after that night. I couldn't get myself to do it. The more and more I thought about it, I knew it would only end in heartbreak. I felt it was better for us to just have shared that magical night and move on. Let's be real, I know I will never move on. I just figured for his sake at least his life is full of excitement and fun. He has his members and millions of women flock to him. He'll be over me in a day or two.

TBH that thought tore me up. I knew it wasn't what I wanted... him to forget about me, but I knew that's what he needed. At least I get to live with these wonderful memories and he gave me his ring to remember him by. I put it on a chain and it hasn't left my neck since. It literally rests on my heart all day every day. I really miss him so so so fucking much.

So I'm back in California. You would never believe what the fuck happened when I got home. I'm literally broken. I tried to quit my job, but Yoo-na told me to just take a week off to process everything. She offered to fly me back, but I have to take care of this empty apartment.

The morning I was heading back to California, I sent my boyfriend a text. Of course, I got no response. I got home and unlocked the door and there was a note sitting on the side table where we kept our keys.

It basically said that we have both known for a long time that our relationship has been over. That he has been unhappy with me for years now. He said that me going to New York was the perfect opportunity to end this. That he moved all his stuff out. He took our dog. He said that he felt that was the least hurtful way to do all this.......

I was devastated and angry. MF didn't even have the balls to say this to my face. To break up in person after 9 fucking years of dating. WTF, I didn't deserve to be let go like this. I miss my pup. I literally went to the couch and slept for 2 days straight. The short times I was awake in-between my sleep I was up crying about Jungkook. I wished I could just be laying in his arms. He was the man of my dreams except he hasn't been showing up in them lately. All my dreams were of me coming back to this empty apartment.

I couldn't even get myself to watch JK's lives. I started watching the one he did today, but he was kinda drunk and it reminded me of our night together. He's such a flirt when he gets drunk. He looked so handsome. I missed him so much I had to turn it off.

On top of all this shit I came back to, I was also pretty sick. I was thankful because it allowed me to sleep through all this pain I've been feeling. I must look like shit. I can't even remember the last thing I ate.

My phone rang and Yoo-na was facetiming me. I picked up and she screamed at me, "Y/N, WTF are you doing to yourself. I love you. I'm buying you a ticket to New York. Come stay with me and Yumi. Yumi has been asking about you non stop. I will get my assistant to handle things with your apartment. Just come out here for now and we'll make a plan for what's next when you get here."

I just shook my head agreeing with tears in my eyes, and told her "Yoo-na, I need you."

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