siwon's pov
Could i tell wonsung about my concerns..? I guessed i could. He would not tell anybody but he would definitely make fun of me for liking someone i pretented to not to care about. This was difficult.. I had never dated. Never had liked someone. Would aryun be disgusted by me if i were to confess..? Yes.. No doubt. I hate myself too.
Telling wonsung would not hurt though.. Also he had been closer with ilsung lately.. I really wondered what was going on. Was he still mad on me for not teaching him physics? I guessed it was something else. His second closest friend was ilsung. I wondered what they had been talking about.
And about Aryun.. That dumbfuck did not have a single clue about my feelings. I mean, yeah. That was supposed to happen of course. I think she was straight after all. And she would be disgusted by me if i WERE to confess. I guessed she liked me as a friend only. But i wanted to fuck her so bad. It only kept getting worse..
Most importantly, i wanted to be by her side everytime. I could even learn cooking for her. I'm not even kidding. Man.. Her food had been so good that day.. I wished to eat more. Why was i not great at expressing myself? I look so stupid whenever i do.
"Hey–"
"Do not talk with me." i replied to wonsung as he came in front of my table.
"I uh.. Um.. I'm sorry? No you know what, i'm not sorry. You've been so weird these days. What's up with you? Also i had something important to talk with ilsung.. So yeah... Not like you want my annoying ass around you anyway."
"Hey."
"Were you even listening?!" he asked. I sighed and looked around me to check if there was aryun around. Still i did not trust the people of my class so i decided to go somewhere else to talk.
"I have something to tell you," i said bluntly and got up from my seat, facing him.
"Woah.. Don't.. DONT TELL ME YOU'RE GONNA CONFESS? IM NOT INTO YOU–"
I gave him the most disgusted look to ever exist.
"I would rather fucking die. Thank you." i replied, looking away. Gladly the other students were not looking or else i would get into another uncalled trouble because of that idiot.
"Damn.. Okay.. Phew.. I'm glad. Whatchu wanna say?~" he asked me again. "Let's go somewhere else.. Where's Aryun?" i asked.
"Oh– i don't really know.. She probably went with hyejin, i saw them walking to the canteen. Also you dont ask about her that much.. What's wrong? You look deadass serious and it's worrying me"
"Quit talking.. Let's go somewhere else to talk.. Probably the rooftop? Yea. Just follow me and do not talk."
"You know damn well it sounds like a fucking confession more than your important thing.. But sure. I won't accept you though.. Keep that in mind." he said as i sighed and walked along. We reached the rooftop and there were a few people. I was glad.
"So uh.. First, promise me you won't laugh." i said looking deadass serious. "Haha.. You're making me laugh already. Did you do something embarrassing?"
"Shut up and listen. I'll go straight to the fucking point. I uh.. Um.. Uh." i did not bring myself to say it. He was listening to me carefully, giving me time.
"Stop staring at me you idiot,"
"Ugh.. Just say what you want to, i'm not your mom."
"Do not." i stopped him and took a deep breath.
"I like this one girl." he gasped the most dramatic gasp possible.
"AYO WHAT"
"SHUT YOUR IDIOTIC ASS UP WILL YOU?" i yelled him to shut him up immediately.
"Fine.. So who's this girl you're talking about? I have someone in my head already.. " he said and smirked.
