wonsung's pov
yeah.. i definitely had a hard time processing that fucking smooch. i kept zoning out, i kept blushing around everyone that ITS EMBARRASSING. ITS NOT FUNNY ANYMORE CHO SEUNGHO- well.. now what? what did that even indicate? bro.. this is so awkward i dont wanna show my face to him again. i;m confused as hell... perhaps i have a chance after all???????? righht?????? right.... right??????????
hell yes. i mean why would he, for no reason, kiss me? there has to be a reason right.. right???? i must know it. because if i dont it will devour my head within no time. or.. do i just wait for him to confront?? maybe? that sounds like a better idea to be very honest. me saying something first seems like a hassle- okay perhaps i am the bottom.. OK A POWER BOTTOM!! power bottoms are sassy as far as ive read.. i dont know.. perhaps im not a power bottom either but ANYWAYS!! i maybe i should say something today..
yeah, i will. the worst he can say is no. yes.............. yes. that would hurt me but let me get ready for it just in case. furthermore it wasnt much of a kiss either... he probably didnt mean to do it..hahahhaa... negativity BEGONE PLEASE i'll take this in a very nonchalant way yes. yes. right?? right. ok i stopped yapping. readers are probably thinking im weird-
that day i kept waiting for him to come back from uni. i as always was looking through the notes he gave me just so that i could impress him later on- that day however felt weird.. i didnt know to bring up that topic anymore... i couldnt focus on physics ughhhh it felt pretty annoying. but for whatever reason he left out the gaming room open that day. i resisted myself from going in for a mere moment then i thought it wouldnt be a hassle to go on in right?? i mean he left the door open.. as long as my clumsy ass doesnt break anything like the other day.. it's all okay i guess.
i went inside. it was pristine as usual. i looked over the piano he had by his setup, it was so random when i first saw it. oh that reminded me- i never got to know his streaming account... maybe i can just search him up on twitch? he never told me though. i then took my phone and searched his name up; surprisingly there were no signs of his twitch. meh.. he probably got a code name.. that was perhaps why i couldnt find him. i should probably ask him later on, i dont see any reason for him to deny to give me his twitch account.. maybe.
i sighed and sat on his huge chair. the scent of his was making me feel sort of comforted. i looked absolutely tiny on his chair alone.. perhaps it were designed for two people (more specifically, for us, we were meant to be)
i roamed a little more and grabbed one of the plushies he had. him being a plushie guy.. it was so cute and random. never thought about that. "what should i do? will he like me? or did he do that for no reason... i dunno buddy. i sure am jealous that you get to stay with him most of the time.. sigh. perhaps when i'm a part of his life, i'll probably be able to spend time with him as well. meh." i said to the plushie and threw it back at where it was. very childish of me, truly.. i sound like a female wanting a man- or maybe im just gay.
i looked behind and saw him, leaning against the wall. DUDE- i got startled not only because of suddenness but also because of HOW FUCKING HOT HE WAS-
"woah, easy. it's me." he said and smiled. "y-yeah no shit- i'm sorry i got in here without your permission- didnt break anything this time hehe-" i said as i scratched the back of my head. i really.. REALLY hoped he didnt listen to my bullshit. what was he, a shadow? WHO COMES IN THIS QUIETLY.
"its fine, not like i restricted you or anything," he said as he walked close to me. "y-yeah. sure." i replied, but he kept on walking. i wasnt sure of what to do.. so i just kept backing away with sync untill there was no space left for me. DUDE. FIRST YOU APPEAR OUT OF NOWHERE AND NOW U DO THIS?
he suddenly stopped in front of my face, not looking away. i hardly could realize our surroundings because it was only him i was looking at. ahh.. its.. awkward.. i look so ugly like that please- dont tell me he heard those words-
"seungho hyung.. i uh.." tried to speak but he had to cut me off. "dont worry, i'm just checking something." with that being said, he moved away and smiled like nothing happened. um.. what the heck bro- i sighed in relief but frowned a little from disappointment. maybe my stupid ass wanted a kiss from him..
"okay.. okay. sure. uh. i have.. new problems! i can.. apparently solve the previous ones thanks to you-!! " he chuckled and nodded. "it's all your hard work, no worries. lets see what you have today." he said as he patted my head. why did he seem so uninterested.. is he not wanna talk about the kiss? he's totally ignoring.. let me just be patient and see what he says.
the session went as usual. nothing out of the ordinary. sigh.. i was sulking after he got me a drink. he noticed that afterwards, i suppose. "wonsung-ah, you did really well today. you're improving, im really glad for that." he said as i only replied with a hum. how can someone be this nonchalant????? dude.. i started frowning.
"not in a yappy mood, huh?" he asked jokingly as i side eyed him aand opened the can of the orange juice and started drinking as if i were drinking soju. he chuckled at that. "sulky wonsung is something new to me."
sulky wonsung my ass- do you seriously not remember anything or were u just high??? i was so done... i sighed. "hyung, thanks for the drink, i'll be off now." he blinked several times at that. after that, he sighed and nodded. "yup. go on, will see you after two days."
GO ON??????? BRO YOU GOTTA BE KIDDING ME- alright.. someday he'll bring it up.. be patient wonsung.. or maybe i could bring it up... yeah. i should.. maybe later. i left without a word.
seungho pov
after he left, i went to the streaming room and got at my desk, quickly opening the footages. i put on the new recording, seeing wonsung just roaming around this room made me want to check. perhaps i became more sure of him liking me after watching the footages of him talking to himself. heh.. a small chuckle came out of my lips. it was funny how childishly in love he was with me, ive seen alot of people but.. definitely not a boy. i wasnt checking anything that time, his expressions looked too genuine for me. perhaps i should not have kissed him that day. it will only make him weak. and thats.. probably something i dont want. it was without his consent too.. let me just see what i can do.
two days later
wonsung's pov
"thanks!! i'll be off!" i said to the librarian and and stormed off the public library. i went to get the physics reference book hyung told me to get. sigh.. i was then walking back home without anything else to do. i went by a vending machine and bought cold coffee. i just started drinking it right away.. perhaps i was overthinking again about him.. i went for the trashcan and someone also threw their can at the same time. i glaced at him and looked away. oh.. they were a group. i passed by them, keeping my gaze down but got a little surprised hearing something.
"that cho seungho guy.. what does he even think of himself?!"
"he got that audio.. i need to snatch that away from him, fuck this hassle.."
"let's probably attack him someday, he wont be able to handle this many dudes."
my jaw lowkey dropped, i was so invested that i didnt realize i wasnt walking anymore, i was just clearly eavesdropping and that got their attention.
"hey kid,"
i got startled. i started walking fast. "stop right there. were you minding your own business or were you in our business? hm" i looked back at them. "i was uh.. checking my phone and uhhh replying to some texts.. didnt hear anything, nope." i held my breath.
"come on, hee probably doesnt know cho seungho even if he heard us. you can shoo away." some other guy walked up to them and said. i took this as a chance and walked away real quick. phew.... what are they plannning? who are they? what audio???? i had so many questions.. sigh.. maybe i should tell hyung the next day i meet him.
