Your Lovable Side (Joshua SVT)

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On the way to college I scrolled through instagram and saw many pics of Sora and Joshua. Everyone was saying that they look good together and that they were dating. But I wasn't happy at all after I realized that I have feelings for him.
„I can't believe this is happening." I said.
„What can't you believe?" it was Joshua who just got into the bus and sat down next to me.
„A-ah I can't believe that I am moving out soon." I quickly said and he nodded. I am such an idiot trying to get him together with her now I like him myself.

„Did you tell at home that you are moving?"
„I did actually. My dad was home yesterday and I really thought that he would get angry about it but he didn't. He allowed me to move out."
„Really? I don't know much about your dad but he seems nice?"
„Well we were pretty close before so yes he was a very nice dad but I don't know about now. After all I never see him and we don't talk."
„I am so proud of you. That you stood up for yourself and made that decision." he said and patted my head. My heart was out of control again but I didn't care it felt nice I loved that feeling. I smiled at him and the bus stopped.

„Let's go we arrived." I said and we got out.
At college everyone was looking at Joshua and whispering. It was clear what they were talking about.
„When do your classes end? Should we go back home together?" he asked and I looked at him.
„Joshua doesn't it bother you? Everyone is looking at you and whispering. I think I shouldn't be walking next to you or Sora will also get a wrong impression."

I wanted to walk away but he gently grabbed my arm.
„Idiot. I don't care at all. Don't you dare to start ignoring me again. We are friends now so you don't have to do anything to please other people. Just be yourself." he said and it made me so happy.
„Alright I will see you later. Let's go home together." I said and he smiled and nodded.

Walking into the last class for today, I saw Sora was in this class too. Everyone surrounded her.
„Since when have you guys been dating?"
Dating? They aren't dating at all. I slammed my books on the table and everyone went silent. They were getting on my nerves.

„We aren't dating... yet." when I heard that i clenched my fist. What does she mean by yet? Don't tell me she likes him too? I turned around and saw her smiling.
„I liked him for a long time but I didn't confess yet so yeah we aren't dating." everyone screamed and my heart was beating faster because of anxiety. I liked the feeling I had when I looked at Joshua but I hate the feeling I have looking at her. They both like each other so that means they will start dating soon when one of them confesses.

„Why are you pulling out your hair?" it was Seulbi along with Joshua. I didn't even realize that I was pulling my hair.
„N-nothing sit down. I was just thinking about something."
„Are you ok? You look so pale." Joshua sat down close next to me. His perfume smelled so nice that it made me want to bury my face in his neck. I am gonna go crazy what am I talking about?!

„I am fine don't worry."
„You seem like you didn't sleep well. If you want you can lean on me to get some sleep. I will take notes for you."
„No I am fine. Don't worry and you shouldn't say that while your crush is sitting behind us." I said and quickly regretted it. I am digging my own grave.
„Forget about her. I am more worried about you right now." he closed my book which I had openend and put everything aside on the table.
„Get some sleep. I will take notes for you."
„But-„
„No but- I don't want to see you collapse so hurry up and get some sleep."  I really should sleep I guess. My mind is filled with so many things and I really didn't sleep much last night.
„Alright but wake me when class is over."
„I will don't worry."

Can't believe I updated 6 days ago. Was quite busy the last few days because of work. So there a 2 chapters for today. Enjoy ✌🏽❤️