CAITLIN
"Then show me what you've got" I know it is a challenge, but that's I wanted her to do.
Bri smirk and came closer to me.
Almost on my top. And I don't know what's got into me, pero hindi ko sya magawang pigilan.
My heart beats faster, anticipating what she would do.
At hindi ko rin maitatanggi. Gusto ko ang ginagawa nya.
I gasped when she place her palm on my chest, right in my heart.
"B-bri---" Napangiti siya pagkabanggit ko ng pangalan nya.
"Yes, Cait. It's Bri. Not Brei. I would not be Ate Brei. Not now nor in a lifetime"
"A-alam ko naman yun" Nauutal na sabi ko.
Sobrang lapit nya sakin.
"Your heart is beating fast. I wonder if it's because of me. Or you just see Ate Brei on me" Pain crossed on her brown eyes. Unlike Brei, who has pitch black eyes.
"I love you, Cait. So much, that it hurts"
"B-bri---"
"But if loving you can tore me into pieces, I don't mind. As long as you are mine" Hindi na ako nakasagot dahil hinalikan na ako ni Bri.
She kiss me lightly, nibbling my lower lip like it is a dessert that she's savouring the flavor.
Her kisses are far different from Brei.
Cait seriously? Stop comparing!
I kiss her back, I wanted to.
She stop kissing me and look at me in the eye.
She smiled while caressing my face.
"Your kissing me back" I bit my lip, nahihiya na bakit pinag uusapan namin ang pahalik ko.
"I'm just glad, Hinalikan mo ko at hindi yun dahil sa lasing ka" Nakangiting sabi nya, pinapaalala ang gabing nalasing ako na hindi ko talaga matandaan.
"Ano bang gusto mo?" Nakangusong reklamo ko.
"Na ako ang hinahalikan mo. I am Brianna, Cait. Not---"
"I know. Your not Brei, Bri. Stop living behind Brei shadows. I know exaclty who I am kissing now" Putol ko sa sinasabi nya na ikinangiti nya.
"That's good to hear. I love you, Cait" Pinigilan nya ako sa pagsagot sa sinabi nya.
"It's okay. I will wait. If I don't have a chance tell me to stop" Naguilty ako sa sinabi ko.
Her love is unconditional and unfair for her. And yet, here she is, still loving me.
I put my hands on her neck. "Thank you. For understanding. But if you fine someone, go for it---"
"I can't love someone as much as I love you now. Your my first, love---"
"Love?" Okay kinilig ako dun, shit!
"Can I call you that?"
"Bri we're not into relation---"
"I know. It doesn't matter. I wanted to remind you always that I love you" Grabe ang isang to.
"Baliw kana"
"Sayo? Sobra! Hindi mo lang alam" She kiss my forehead and went down to my lips again.
I was about to open my mouth when I heard Breielle's voice.
Napapikit si Bri pagtulak ko pero umalis rin naman at umayos.
"Mom?" I met her in the middle of the stairs.
"Yes, anak?"
"I can't sleep po" She peaked down and saw Bri then look at me.
Naroon na naman ang mga tingin nya na para bang may ginagawa kaming kalokohan.
"Can you sleep beside me, Mom?"
"O-oo naman, anak. Tara" Akay ko sakanya, hindi maalis ang tingin nya kay Bri na para bang alam nyang may ginawa kami.
I tucked her into her bed and lay down beside her.
Mas malapit talaga sakin si Breielle, rather mas protective. Si Brae naman ay mas malambing sakin.
Breielle sometimes acting like she was the protector on us.
Just like Brei. Ganoon na ganoon ang galawan nya.
Bagay na madalas, napapaisip ako.
She never met Brei and yet, she acted like she knows her.
"Mom, do you like Tita Bri?" Nagulat ako sa tanong nya, madalas talaga nagugulat ako sa bata na to.
"Well, we all like your Tita Bri. Ikaw ba hindi?"
"I like Tita Bri as Tita Bri. Hindi po as Dada"
Eto na naman kami...
"Anak, your tita is nice. She's been with us since you and Brae was born. She's been good to us, diba?"
"Opo. Pero hindi po ba it's natural since she is our Aunt?"
Hindi talaga ako mananalo sa bata na to!
"Yes. And she's doing that because she is your Aunt---"
"It's better that way naman po diba?" Napakunot noo ako sa sinabi nya.
"Y-yeah it is---"
"Mom, is she going to be our new Dada?"
Straight forward talaga ng anak ko na to!
"Breielle, it's an adult stuff----"
"Mom, please wait for Dada Brei"
Pakiramdam ko ay huminto ang paghinga ko sa sinabi nya.
Breielle is looking at me intently, na para bang normal lang ang sinabi nya.
"B-breielle, m-matagal ng wala ang Dada----"
"She's not po. She will comeback to us, sabi niya sakin, Mommy"
I gasped and cover my mouth, shocked on what she is saying.
Nag aalala ako sa mga sinasabi ng anak ko!
May nakikita ba sya na hindi namin nakikita?!
"A-anak, Dada Brei is long gone. Baby pa kayo nun---"
"No po Mom. Buhay po si Dada. I've seen her a couple of times na po"
Napatayo ako sa labis na gulat sa sinasabi nya.
What the hell is she saying?!!
Please Brei wag mo namang pahirapan ang anak natin kung nasaan ka man.
"Anak, matulog na tayo. We'll talk tomorrow and we'll visit a doctor okay?" Tumango sya saka yumakap sakin.
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