Failed • l.d

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Updating bc I realized today I start school next Tuesday & I'm not sure if I'll be able to update next Thursday or update weekly for that matter. So we this week I'm going to update as much as I can.

'Cus I got a jet black heart

Enjoy xx

(Really loving the weeknd new album & 5sos new album too)

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"Hey, are you busy?" I said into the phone.

"No why?"

"Can you come outside?" I asked. I saw Christian peek out his bedroom window and then he hung up his phone and ran downstairs. I quickly got out the car and ran over to Christian.

"What are you doing here? He asked. He took a closer look at my face. "Have you been crying?" All I did was nod and he pulled me in another hug. Where I began crying again.

"Come on, let's go for a drive, I'm driving though." I nodded my head and handed him my car keys. Christian got in the car and started the car up.

"I'm running out of gas." I said as Hershey came up to the front seat with me.

"Holy shit! "Christian yelled out. I jumped up scared. "What the fuck was that?" He yelled out.

"Christian chill out, it was just Hershey." I said as he laid on my lap. I began to laugh uncontrollably at Christian reaction.

"Well thanks to him I gotta change my boxers!" He said.

I laughed. "You wear boxers?"

"Kim, every guy does." He said in a duh tone.

I shook my head. "No, I know some kids from back home who don't."

"Then the guys in Chicago are fucked up." He admitted.

I sighed. " That's true. To be honest, I'm glad to be back. It feels good to be back."

Christian smiled. "Good, it's been hell without you."

I scoffed. "Yeah right. I see all of you guys on snap chat, Instagram and Twitter."

"It's not the same without you." Chris said. "Lucas always asking the girls about you. Or he ask Zach, Leah and Liam since you know,you kind of stopped talking to us."

"Sorry it's just I dunno. I guess I just needed time to heal." I told him. I began to pet Hershey.

"Did you?" He asked.

"Did I what?" I asked confused on what he was asking.

"Did you heal?" He asked me. I felt my phone vibrate and saw it was Leah now calling me. I ignored it.

"No," I said. "I still miss Lu- him like crazy."

Chris took a glance at me. "Well if it helps he misses you."

I didn't say anything. We both didn't until we got to the park reserve. That's where Christian kinda forced everything out on me.

"Why are you here Kim? I mean that day in English.... kinda sounded like you never wanted to come back. "He said. "Besides didn't you graduate today?"

I sighed. "Yeah I did, But because of that I left."

"Why? Were you scared?" He asked me.

"No, no I went... but it was what happened after..."