Get Lost With You (The Lost Souls on Tour: The Fourth Tour)

The End of the Fourth Tour

Note: Hi, I'm sorry if I took a year to finish this story. To be honest, it's hard to write this story and I almost gave up writing it. And the funny thing is...Theo's story is even harder. Kasalanan ko naman ito, e. xD. But thank you for reaching the last chapter! This will end the story of Andrius Romano. Soon, I'll be reposting Gio's story after revising it. Pero baka matagal pa iyon. I'm planning to publish a new series which was a pending series of mine. Baka gamitin ko rin iyong scapegoat kapag hirap na ako sa story ni Theo, lol. That's all, thank you!

The End of the Fourth Tour

I don't know when I will overcome this. To feel her body next to me felt like I was already on the other side. Hanggang ngayon, takot na takot pa rin ako sa tuwing mawawala siya sa paningin ko. Knowing how dangerous her job is, I just want to... run away with her. To keep her beside me rather than bear another day thinking about the possibility of what if...

"Andrius..." She grunted a bit as her eyelids flickered as they slowly opened just to see her black orbs gazing at me sleepily. Ngumiti siya sa akin at saka niyakap ang hubad kong dibdib bago niya isiniksik ang sarili roon.

After she recovered, she became more...expressive, which was good. I've always known that...she was just like me, concealing, acting, and even stowing away what's beneath our masks that we prevail. That's why since then, I always wanted to make her feel that I'm here for her. That she doesn't need to act and be who she really is because even though the whole world will hate her for being herself, I will love her more.

But...who am I talking? Parehas lang naman kami. Na kahit paulit-ulit din niyang pinaramdam sa akin na hindi niya ako huhusgahan kapag malungkot ako, pinipilit ko pa rin ang sarili ko na umaktong ayos kahit hindi naman talaga. And knowing that...she has her own reasons, I cannot just make her more expressive in a short span of time if she got used to being like that. Dahil kahit ako, hindi ko rin naman agad nabago iyon, e.

"May masakit ba?" Bulong ko habang hinihimas ang ulo niya. My gaze moved down toward her fresh scars. Whenever I see them, I can't help but remember that day when I was patiently waiting for her and just to be welcomed by her body slowly losing its life. Para akong mababaliw noon habang hinihintay ang bawat balita ng doktor ng ahensya nila kung nasa maayos na ba siyang lagay. Those sleepless nights that I had while waiting for her eyes to open, it was a pure torture.

Tangina. Kung hahayaan ko siya sa ganitong trabaho, makakaya ko bang hindi tuluyang mawala wisyo kung paulit-ulit lumilitaw sa utak ko ang duguan niyang katawan at ang unti-unting paghina ng paghinga niya?

Hindi.

"Wala naman..." She chuckled lowly. I felt her warm breath on my chest which made my heart beat even more wildly. Pero kahit ano'ng saya at kapayapaan ang nararanasan namin ngayon, hindi ko pa rin maiwasang mahabol ng dilim ng kahapon.

"Cianna..." I mumbled huskily. I closed my eyes as I wrapped my arms around her curves before burying my face on the top of her head. I sniffed her jasmine-scented hair as I planted small kisses on it. "Can you...leave your job?"

For months of being with her after she woke up from being comatose, I never opened this up. Takot akong pag-usapan ito dahil gusto kong magpahinga muna siya at magpagaling habang nakaalalay ako sa kaniya. I even took a long leave from work and let the rest of the members continue to be active without me just to stay with her.

Pero ngayon...siguro ngayon, puwede ko ng sabihin. That thought always kept me awake at night because of my own fear that I didn't know if I could even overcome.

I breathed a heavy sigh. "I'm sorry...it's just that..." Hirap kong ani nang hindi ako makarinig ng sagot mula sa kaniya.

"I know..." She mumbled lowly. Naramdaman ko ang paggalaw ng ulo niya kaya napahiwalay ang mukha ko mula sa pagkakasubsob sa kaniyang ulo para tingnan siya. She smiled sadly at me. "Alam ko na...ikaw ang pinaka naapektuhan dahil sa nangyari, Andrius. For almost two months, I've came into a conclusion that...up until now, it is still bothering you. Me...almost dying."