Veiled Emotions - A Scaramouche fanfic

Chapter 15 - Let's Forget the Past

Haru

I don't know what came over me. I wasn't always such a forward and bold person, but for some reason I ended up kissing him without thinking when provided with the opportunity. Not to mention, I had poured my entire heart out to him just moments before. I pulled back shortly because I just realized what I had done. I half expected him to just walk away after dropping a sarcastic comment like "Heh. Your feelings are pathetic. " or "You dare to kiss me! " But instead he was... kissing me now?

The entire world disappeared when his lips touched mine for the second time. I instinctively closed my eyes. The kiss was anything but gentle, with his hands grabbing my face and the back of my neck as his lips moved on mine with aggression. It suited his personality. The kiss lasted only a few seconds but it felt like an eternity to me. To be honest, I hadn't kissed anyone before. I had only read about first kisses in books and they barely did any justice to what I was feeling just then.

When he pulled away I was in a daze as I looked at him through wide eyes and a blush coating my cheeks. This was all too good to be true. We didn't break eye contact for a moment as we realized what we had just done. His expression was filled with what looked like yearning. It all suddenly ended when he abruptly let go of me and sighed as he turned away.

"This is a mistake. " He said in a cold tone which irritated me.

"We're done here. "

He was running away once again. I wasn't going to let him go just like that.

"No. We are not done here. You feel the same way about me, don't you? You were the one who kissed me again. You can't say you don't feel it too. " I sighed and shook my head. Seriously, what goes on on this man's head?

"Please don't push me away anymore."

"You're so foolish. Nothing good will come out of this. " He warned.

"I don't care how this ends. Why do you always have to put up a wall between us? I am telling you how I feel, why can't you just admit that you feel the same way? " I snapped back at him. I really wondered where I got all that confidence from.

"I am not someone you want to be with. You should find someone who is human at the very least. " He sighed.

"You don't get to decide who I can or can't be with. I want this and I know that you want it too but you are just too scared to admit it! " My chest heaved with fuming rage mixed with all the other emotions I was feeling at the moment as I glared at him.

He looked at me for a moment before stepping closer till his face was inches away from mine once again. I got an urge to kiss him again at the closeness but I decided not to.

"You have no idea what kind of consequences could come from this. I am not a human.... You have no idea of the things I have done. I am not the good guy and I never will be. " His frustration and anger were still there but there was also... hope in his voice.

"I... am aware. But we can always worry about that later. It hurts me when you stop talking to me and it hurts me even more when you distance yourself from me" I calmed down a little as I looked into his eyes.

His eyes weren't as emotionless and dead as they always were. There was a subtle sparkle to them as he looked into mine.

"You're such an idiot. " He sighed deeply and shook his head.

"I know. " I admitted as I knew that what I was asking for wasn't logical or calculated in the slightest.

"But I guess I am an idiot too because you are right. Screw it all." He grinned as he pulled me into a tight hug.