Silent : Unveiling the Turmoil of a Teenage Heart

CHAPTER 15

ELIJAH

God, Soori. How can you be that sweet? Too sweet. Every time I get annoyed at something she does, she immediately apologizes and tries to make me feel better. She's not toxic, and I'm not used to that. She never starts arguments. And if she does tell me something she doesn't like, she does it in the most polite way possible. She's like a piece of paper. I could tear her apart and just tape her back together when I'm done being annoyed with her.

I'm sitting with my friends : Joshua, Ryan and Nathan. "Yo, dude. You'll never believe who just added me back on Snapchat." Ryan starts. "Who?" We all asked. It's probably one of the cheerleaders. They're all the same. I mean, they're really hot, but nothing special. "Elaine, dude. She's fucking gorgeous!" Ryan bragged.

I can't lie, Elaine is pretty. Wavy, long, brown hair all the way down to her lower back. Tinted skin, big green eyes, pointy nose and full lips. She's got nice curves and she's short. Perfect girl.

But I can't say nor think that. I'm with Soori. Soori is also pretty. Very pretty. But she's a cute type of pretty. Someone you want to stare at until you become bored of it. Soori wants dates like walking on the beach, studying together or something boring like read a book.

When I see the cheerleaders all I can think about is how they would look in bed. I don't have anything against cheerleaders, but the ones at our school are extremely arrogant and bitchy. They would make a nice fuck buddy, but they couldn't make a long lasting relationship.

But I can do those things with Soori. Because her body, wow. The prettiest soft, black hair. I bet it would look a lot better wrapped around my fist. And those dark, small eyes would look awesome rolled all the way back. Those lips even prettier when they're not touching each other, just that mouth completely opened. And that body, my goodness. I wonder how it would look completely ruine-

"So how are things with Soori?" Joshua snaps me out of my thoughts. "Good." I reply, not looking at him. I keep staring at the floor beneath me, not being able to get the thought of a completely ruined Soori out of my head. "Just good?" He smirks as he says that. "It's been two days since I asked her out,  of course nothing special happened." I explained.

"Not even a kiss?" Nathan asks, clearly shocked. These three are the types to fuck on the first date. I'm not saying I've never done that, but I know that's not Soori's style. I do care about her, but it is very different from the 'relationships' I've had. "Dude, of course we kissed. Just not saying 'I love you' and having sex. Soori doesn't want to go too fast." I explained. I don't have a lot of patience, but I do understand Soori. It's pretty normal to wait with those things. I mean, I think about Soori in a sexual way a lot, but if she's not ready for sex with me right now, we won't do it.

We talk about my relationship with Soori some more. They stopped listening when I started rambling about her, but I kept talking. I like to talk about her, because there's so much to say. Not only about her appearance, but about her personality too. As I said before, Soori is really sweet. I feel like she really cares about me and she always wants to make sure the people around her are doing okay. She genuinely cares and isn't afraid to show it.

Suddenly, the school bell rang. It was time for class. I'm supposed to be going to biology, but I really don't want to go. I can't skip again. School is already nagging at me and I really don't want them to tell my parents. They would give me a lecture about how important school is to me, that I will never get far if I keep behaving like this, and they will take away all my electronic devices. I fucking hate school. It takes so much time. It only brings me stress.

I walk to the biology classroom at a slow pace. My feet feel heavy, I can barely lift them up. I still have to walk up the incredibly steep stairs. Me and a hundred other students slowly walk up the stairs. Even though my condition is very good, my legs always get sore from walking up these stairs. When I finally reach the second floor, I realize I have to go up another pair of stairs.

I'm a senior, and all our classes and lockers are on the top floor. The juniors have classes on the second floor. On the first floor, we have the art classrooms and the cafeteria. So the first floor is for every year. The freshmans and the sophomores have classes in another building next to ours. It's all part of one school, but the building's were too small for all the students to fit in, so the school decided to make two buildings instead of expanding the first one. Stupid decision if you ask me.

I finally reach the third floor. I turn right and walk over to my locker. I open it with my key and take out all things I need. I need my biology textbooks and my notebooks. I take those out of my locker and put them in my backpack. I zip up my backpack and put it on. I always have my backpack hanging on one shoulder. I don't know if that's good for my shoulders, but it's whatever.

The biology classroom is not that far away, so I don't have to walk any longer. When I reach the classroom, I find a spot in the back. Nathan sits down next to me. I drop my bag on the floor and take out the books I need.

TIME SKIP : AFTER SCHOOL

I luckily have my own car, so I can drive home. I hate taking the bus. It smells, the people are annoying and the bus driver can't drive. I've never been more nauseous than I was on that one bus drive in my freshman year. I nearly threw up.

I walk over to my car and unlock it. It's not that long of a drive home. It's about twenty minutes. I get in the car, start it and put my seatbelt on. I slowly drive away. I don't want to go home. I'm super tired, and my mom decided to invite my aunt and all my cousins to come over. And my cousins aren't fun, they're just annoying. All they do is scream, run, play Roblox and complain about everything. My aunt's oldest son is ten years old. My nieces are twins, they're seven. My youngest nephew is four.

It's already 3:18 PM, so I hope they'll leave soon. My mom said they arrived at 12:00 PM, so I think they won't be staying any longer. At least, I hope so. I decide to take the longest route home.

When I arrive, my aunt's car is still parked in front of our house. Fuck, this is going to be a long afternoon. My annoying cousins, but also my own siblings. My siblings are just as annoying as my cousins.

I take a deep breath before I get out of my car. I finally get the courage to get out and walk to the front door. I lock my car and slowly walk over to our house. We live in a pretty big house. I mean, both my parents live there, they have five children and lots of family that comes over every once in a while. So, a big house is a must. As soon as I open the front door, I already hear my brother and my cousin fighting about something stupid.

Fuck. My. Life.