Of unsound mind.

Part 12

Getting ourselves to move on.

It took us two months to start therapy, David Richards, Sasha's grandmother recommended him to us, we had him checked out, we probably know more about him than he knows himself, James said we had to be careful because who my family is. Our first session was sort of a meet and greet, so he could get an understanding of why we're there. By our third session we really opened up about our feelings about PJ, James really surprised me the way he told Doctor Richards how he felt about everything. 

Chandler didn't say anything, I wasn't sure how he felt, at first, he didn't want to talk to a stranger about PJ, I hope in time he feels differently.

After two more sessions Chandler started telling him how he felt about losing PJ, sometimes he seemed angry, and other times he told the doctor funny stories about PJ. Doctor Richards suggested that Chandler had his on sessions with him, we agreed if Chandler wanted that, he said it won't hurt to talk. I had the feeling there was something PJ wasn't telling us.

We left our session and when we got outside some lady called Chandler a murderer, Jeff blocked her, and we got in the car. James said maybe Chandler should go away for a while, Chandler said after he has a few more sessions with Doctor Richards let that lady think what she wants.

My son is more like PJ than I thought, I hope it's the good side of him, we got home Chandler said after dinner he's going out, don't wait up for him, he went upstairs. I told James something is different about Chandler I hope it's for the good, I can't go through that hell again.

Pie, Chandler isn't a boy anymore, he's a man in a way PJ was holding Chandler back, maybe he's seeing himself for the first time, Pie said he hopes I'm right. Later we had dinner, after we ate Chandler said he's leaving, Pie asked him where's he off too, Chandler said just hanging out with some new people, he told us not to wait up for him, he just left.

I told Pie funny Chandler never mentioned any new friends, he said, he doesn't like it, maybe we shouldn't have let Chandler go. I told him we can't hold his hand; he has to experience things for himself. Pie asked me did I still have a trace on Chandler's car, I told him I do, but maybe we should take it off and let him have his privacy.

 Pie said OKAY after this time we won't check on Chandler, which I knew he was just saying that, I know my husband, we went into my study, I pulled up the tracking device, we say the area that Chandler is driving in, Pie said there's not much in that area but, oh shit he said could Chandler be going to the man's spot.

I told him if he is, our son knows to be safe, and he'll be careful, we watched and the address came up sure enough it's the man's spot, I closed the app out. Pie said after breaking up with Blake our son has been different, he wonders how many times Chandler has been there.

I told him when he gets home don't ask him anything, Pie said damn our son is in a bath house doing who knows what.

(Chandlers place of pleasure or punishment)

I got to the man's spot, I got a suite as usual, I went to the room and showered and afterwards I wrapped up in a towel and walked around, I've been here several times after Blake, and I broke up. It was the same ole dudes here, and most of them I already had, I don't do return fucks, now what do I feel like tonight, giving head or getting head, or maybe fuck a few dudes or get fucked by one, I'm not good at taking dick. But tonight, I want to be punished.

 I walked around and I saw this dude I've never seen before going in the dark room, maybe that's a newbie for some hot safe sex of course. I went in there and saw him put on a red bracelet, the blue light is on but the farther I went in the darker it got, but I followed the red bracelet to the back, and I walked up on him and grabbed his dick, and he grabbed mine. He whispered in my ear he wants to suck some dick and get fucked, that voice was very familiar to me, I used a deep voice, I told him I have a suite, he said no fuck him in here he has condoms.

He went down on me, and dudes head game was familiar to me, damn is this Blake, he stopped and turned his back and told me to fuck him, he gave me a condom I put it on and went up in him, he said damn go slow his ass is tight, for a while I did what he said, but it felt so good I went deep in his ass and fucked until I busted a nut, I pulled out of him slowly and walked away.

 I stood on the side to see if that was Blake, when we were dating, I was afraid to go all the way with him, he came out and it is Blake, I went to my room and showered again. I fucked Blake, damn if I knew it was going to be that good, I would've been fucked him, I watched T.V. for a while and then watched some porn and got horny again.

 I rubbed on my dick and wrapped the towel around me and walked out of the room, some old dude grabbed my dick and said he knows how to make me feel good, I just kept going. I wonder if Blake is still here, anyway I'll find someone new to fuck with.

I saw this kid he couldn't have been no more than eighteen if that, I walked up to him, he said sup what am I into, I said it depends on the person I'm chilling with, he asked me did I have a room. I told him yeah, he told me to lead the way, we went to my room and we gave each other head, dude had a long skinny dick, he said he wants to fuck I kind of felt his vibe so I told him to get a condom and I lubed up and got on the bed on all fours, he rubbed his dick head on my hole, he tried putting the head in me, he said damn I'm tight.

I told him I don't get fucked, he asked me why now, I told him it's a punishment for me, he said OKAY and rammed his dick in my ass, this was the most pain I've ever been in, but I didn't tell him to stop. I looked at the clock and dude has been pounding my ass for fifteen minutes, finally he said he's about to come, he pounded me harder and deeper, finally he pulled out he took the condom off and came on my ass.

I got out of bed and went in the bathroom and took a shit, damn dude fucked the shit out of me, I took a quick shower and came out of the bathroom, dude was gone. I got my punishment so I'm getting out of here, I saw my wallet on the nightstand I checked it that little fuck stole my cash, everything else was here, I couldn't help but laugh. I just got dressed and checked out, I just went home.

I went into the kitchen to get a snack, my dads were still up watching T.V., no doubt they were waiting up for me, daddy Pierre asked me how my night was, I told him I got what I deserved and got some fruit and went up the backstairs.

Chandler went upstairs, I asked James I wondered what he meant by that, bae said he did go to a bathhouse, he wasn't in there to take a bath. I told James we never had the real talk with Chandler about same sex relationships, bae said he thinks he knows; James turned off the T.V. and we went upstairs. I said to James, I wonder what Chandler likes, is he like me, a bottom or like him a top, or maybe he's versatile. James said that's Chandlers business all we can do is tell him to make sure he's safe, now come to bed and let him put his top skills on me, of course I let him do just that.

 After we finished, we got cleaned up and got back in bed, James went to sleep and I thought about our son, I hope he is being safe. I held James and went to sleep.