Of unsound mind.

Part 2

(You can fool yourself, but not us) Part 2 of 2

In part 1 of you don't fool us, we're going to see PJ, we decided we're going to pretend that we don't notice PJ's so-called change. I'm wonder just how far he'll go with pretending he's gay, since it's the weekend his doctor isn't going to be there so we can't talk to him.

We got to West Haven, and the guard checked the bag with PJ's things in it, he said everything is fine, we were taken to the visitor room we sat down, Chandler said this place doesn't seem too bad. James told him let's just say this isn't a place he'd like to be in.

PJ came into the room, I saw the look on Chandler's face as he looked at his brother, I could see that he was trying not to laugh, PJ had on make-up and some tight shorts, James looked at me.

 PJ walked up to the table, he said he's glad James and Chandler came, I got up and hugged PJ, I didn't say anything about what he's wearing. James and Chandler got up and hugged him too, we sat down, James told PJ thanks for wanting to see him, I gave PJ his things.

Dad I was wrong for what I said, you put me in here to get help and it took me a year to see that, I'm not ready to come home yet until I don't want to hurt myself, daddy James asked me did I want to still hurt other people. I told him know, but there are times I want to hurt myself for the things I've done.

I looked in the bag, dad got me everything I asked for, I'm just going to give some of it away, I'll keep the condoms. I was sure dad James or Chandler would say something about the way I'm dressed, but it's early. I asked Chandler how's school going, he said college is hard work, but he likes it, he asked me when I do get out of here what am I going to do, I told him that will be a while before I get out of here, daddy James just kept staring at me.

I told Chan maybe I'll go to college; I heard there's a lot of partying, and who knows maybe I'll get an education.

Pierre James are you just saying all of this so that will let you get out of here, for once be honest.

Daddy James, I have thought about going to college, and yes, I do want to go home and be with my family, but I'm not ready, I'm glad you came, and I love you please believe that.

PJ, I'd like to think that you're getting better, but you dressed like that tells me you're not, Pierre told me that you being gay, you want us to love you, son we already do, and this isn't you, I told them I'll be in the car waiting for them. I got up and PJ asked for a hug, I gave it to him, I wanted to cry, but I held it back and walked away.

I sat down and wiped the make -up off my face, I said it didn't work, you guys love me, and I don't have to pretend to be someone I'm not.

That's right son, like I told you, be yourself, and do what you need to do to get out of here, we want you back home, I got up and hugged him and told my boy I love him, I told Chandler take his time with PJ, I'm going to the car, I walked away, God help my son.

 Dad left, and Chandler asked me am I for real, I told him I am, and I need to take these tight ass shorts off, my nuts are hurting, Chandler laughed and said only I would try something crazy like this. I told him I'm sorry for blaming him for my issues, he said that's what brothers are for, I told him no I didn't treat him right and I'll make it up to him. Chan said all he wants is for me to get out of this place and come back home, he needs me.

I said he doesn't need me, he's always been a good kid, he said that has nothing to do with it, he needs his brother, I told him OKAY I'll get better and come home. Chan said he's glad I wanted to see him, and he'll come back every chance he can until I get out of this place.

He asked me did I need anything, but he's not getting me what's in that bag, we both laughed, I told him I could use some cash, I can buy candy bars and other snacks, Chandler said all he has is twenty bucks, but he'll bring me more when he comes back tomorrow, I told him thanks, he gave me the money.

I asked him if he's dating, he looked at me, I told him don't worry I'm not going to hurt his friend, Chandler said he does have a friend and they hang out, I asked him does he like him, he can tell me. Chan told me like he said they're just friends that's all, he said he better get going he'll see me tomorrow, I told him don't tell our dads he gave me money, they don't want me to have any, he said he won't.

Chan hugged me I felt like crying, I do miss my brother, Chan left.

I walked out of that place, I wasn't going to tell PJ too much about Blake, I wasn't sure if he would hurt him or if PJ has changed, I got in the car and daddy Pierre asked me how my visit with PJ was, I told him I think PJ really wants help, daddy James said we'll see, and he drove off.

 When we got home Blake pulled into the driveway behind us, we got out of the car, I told him he's right on time, he spoke to my dad's, and we went into the house. I told Blake I'll get changed and we can take that swim, he came upstairs with me, I got my trunks and changed in the bathroom.

I looked up and Blake is standing in the doorway smiling at me, I told him we're just friends remember, he said friends don't stick their dicks in another friend's mouth. I told Blake to keep that down my folks might hear him, Blake said I'm nineteen my parents know I have sex even if it's just oral sex. I put my trunks on and walked towards the door, Blake kissed me and said later he'll give me some head, I walked out of the bathroom a got my sunglasses and we walked out of the room.

We walked through the kitchen, and I asked Liz can she make us some sandwiches, she said she already did, we took the sandwiches and soda outside. Blake asked me where did I and my dad's have to do that he had to wait to come here, I told him we went to see my brother.

Blake said I never told him I had a brother, I told him we're twins, he said wow so there's two of me, I said something like that, he asked me so where's my brother. I told him he's in West Haven, Blake said he's never heard of it, is it a school, I said no it's a kind of a rest home, he looked at me and said oh a nut house.

I told him don't say that he said sorry, but his cousin went to what her parents called a rest home, the girl was nuts, not saying my brother is. I told him let's talk about something else.

 Later after our swim Blake gave me oral sex in the pool house, after we finished, we came out of the pool house, and Liz looked at us I think Liz knows what we were doing in there, she was took the plates in the house. I said damn, I hope she doesn't say anything to my dad's, Blake said again what's the big deal about my parents knowing I'm not a virgin, they know I will have sex.

 I told Blake he better go now, I'll see him tomorrow, but I'm going to see my brother first, Blake said he'll go with me, I told him some other time, he kissed me I looked around to see if anyone saw us, and Blake left.

I went into the house, Liz said someone has a boyfriend, just be safe, I went upstairs to my room and took a shower, I think I'm just telling the family that Blake and I are just friends, so they won't tell PJ, I'm not sure he's changed as far as my sexuality.

The next day I went to see PJ, we talked, and he seems different in a good way, I gave him the cash, and after that day I would come and see him and bring him cash, maybe my brother is getting better. 

It's been a month and a half of me seeing PJ, and I would bring him cash, we were watching T.V. The Golden girls is on, PJ said every time the old lady acts up her daughter tells her she'll send her back to Shady Pines. He said when he gets out of here if he acts up, our dads will send him back here, I said Shady Pines, PJ and I laughed, it felt good to see my brother laugh again.

PJ said last Friday Dyland and EJ came and saw him, and Manny came too, and yesterday grandmother came to see him, she told him to get his shit together so he can get out of here, she'll take him on a trip. I told him please just get better, like I told him I need him, a part of me is missing, he said he feels the same way. I asked him when he is going to let grandfather Ekim come and see him, he's forgave dad he can forgive grandfather, he said I'm right can I tell him I want to see him. I said I'll do that, and it's good to see him smile again.

I told him I have to go, but I'll come and see him on Wednesday, I don't have any classes, he said OKAY cool, and he loves me, I told him I love him too, we hugged, and I left. I hope PJ isn't playing me, and just telling me what I want to hear, he better be doing what he needs to do, to get out of here.