I Cant Do This Anymore (Nathan Sykes fanfiction)

Homewrecker

*Nathan's POV

"HOLY FUCKING SHIT NO!" I scream as I wake up from a truamatic and horrendous nightmare. Breathing heavily I reach for my inhaler on the side table. Why is this happening to me? I look at the clock, it 7 in the morning, I've had 3 hours sleep. I've been trying to stay up for as long as possible at the momment to avoid falling asleep. These nightmares are really starting to scare me. In this one I saw all my family and loved ones being burned alive whilst I'm in a cage tied up so I'm forced to watch.

I hear stomping accross the hall. I know who it is. My door flies open and I see the all too familiar face of the person who has been making my life hell for the past 4 months. He looks at me with pure anger and venom in his eyes. Walking over to my bed I feel the hatred pulsating off of him. He's drunk. I can smell the vodka and other concoctions he's consumed he consumed tonight from the other end of the room. He looks at me, glaring, my chest getting tighter and tighter with panic. A cunning smile spreads accross his face "sweet dreams Sykes" and with that he walks back to his room. The feeling of not being able to breath consumes me. Was that it? Is he comming back? What is his game?! I sit there for ages, trying to steady my breathing. Eventually I hear the other boys start to get up. I look at the clock. 9AM. Whats the point in getting up? Its not like I have anything good to get up to. I pushed the only tru friend I had away, A member of my band hates me with such a passion he's willing to make my life hell and I cope by slicing my self open every night. Not much of a life is it?

I am woken from my doze by my door crashing open. I pull the duve further over my head when I hear Jay laughing. "Seriously mate your still in bed? c'mon man its midday!" He rips the covers off me and I make a mock scream "for all you know I could have been naked!"  "Well thats a risk I'm willing to take if it'll get you out of bed!" I give him the middle finger. "Now Babynath that wasnt very nice! seriously though you have to get out of bed at some point today. Those pills the docter gave you have turned you into a right lazy slob just recently! And we're off out clubbing tonight. All of us. No arguments. Be ready for 7" He walks out. Great. I really dont want to go clubbing. However I suppose maybe getting drunk could help me forget everything thats going on at the momment? Maybe I can drink my problems away?

I check my clothes and look through my hat collection for one that suits. God I've actually missed this. Going out for a night out. Maybe this wont be so bad after all? After picking a red and white hat I make my way downstairs where the lads are waiting. "God things never change, your still the last one down here!" Jay laughs as he knocks my cap off my head.

We get to the club at about half 7. I instantly make my way to the bar " 2 yegabombs and a double vodka and coke please" after ID'ing me the barman hands me my drinks. I down the 2 yegabombs and make my way to the booth with my vodka and coke. Jay is sat there with a round of shots. Brilliant. This is going to be a night to remember!

After the shots we make our way to the dancefloor. I decide to try and get laid tonight. I just need something to take my mind off everything. I decide to go for the easiest target. I quickly seperate an already intoxicated blond mess from the rest of the dancers and make my way over to her. I start by dancing next to her. She catches me and starts to grind up against me. Well maybe this will be easier then I thought? "WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU DOING!" A hand grabs my shoulder and spins me round. A massive bald man glares at me. I can smell alcohol on his putrid breath. Jay and Siva spot whats going on and stand in between us. "Whoa mate honestly he didnt mean it" He grunts in my face "Stay awat from my girl or I'll find you where your little mates cant protect you next time". He walks off and jay pats me on the shoulder "you ok mate?" I nod and walk further into the middle, trying to shake off what just happened. I spot Tom heading towards me with more shots. We down them and my confidence starts to grow like it alwasy dose when I drink.

After another hour of dancing I decide to sit down in our booth at the edge of the club. I'm exhausted! I sit down and take a swig of the drink some random girl gave to me. "Well well well, we've got a lot of catching up to do Sykes" I looks up to see Lucy standing in front of me. Skin tight leapod print mini dress. Six inch heels and more make up then I've ever seen. She sits down next to me and takes the drink from my hands. "Lucy what are you doing?" she smirks "Claiming whats mine". she slams her lips onto mine. Forcing her tounge into my mouth. I push her off me but she comes back for more "C'mon Nath, we both know this is what you want" She says before crashing onto me again. Her hand heads for my croch and I finally manage to push her off me. She licks her lips and smirks before walking off. Just when I think its all over a hand wrenches me from my seat and drags me outside. The person throws me into a dark alley next to the club. I look up and See Max. His eyes full of rage to the point I feel it radiate off of him. "What were you doing Sykes? thought you learnt your lesson?" "Max please she kissed me!" My voice is barely a whisper. "Yeah and where have I heard that before!". His foot makes contact with my stomach as he kicks me. Pain radiates through my body like a waterfall. "Eh sykes? WHERE HAVE I FUCKING HEARD THAT BEFORE!" He yells and more kicks and punches rein down on my body. He kicks anywhere he can. My face feels like its imploding in on itself and I can feel blood pouring from it as the worls begins to go fuzzy. "you just never listen do you!" he says as more vicouse assualts rein down on me. He looks me right in the eye as he brings his right foot back "Why dont you just fucking listen!" and with that his foot connects hard with my face. The pain is unbearable. Forcing me to cry out. I hear my nose shatter as pain floods every centemeter of my body.

Max's face contorts with guilt as I looks up at him. Bleeding and shaking. "What have I done? Oh shit, Oh shit" he looks at his hands. "no, you fucking monster". He runs into the club, Just leaving me there. The pain is so bad. It feels like I'm dying. Everything goes fuzzy as I pick my phone out of my pocket and call the person I need most. I hit dial and after 2 rings a voice say "Hello?" I try to speak but nothing works. "Hello Nath? Nath where are you? Whats happened" I manged to utter a few words "Char, help...." Before everything goes black......

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DUN DUN DUN. Well its late but I was so determined to get this up :) Hope you all like. This fics suddenly got a lot darker now :O much love Ellz xxxxxx