I Cant Do This Anymore (Nathan Sykes fanfiction)

suspicious minds

*Carlie's POV

After turning up late Jay has the ordacity to ignore me for most of the day. He seem's so distracted. We're sat in the kitchen eating lunch "So I was think we could go out to the cinema just me and you tommorow when Charly and Nathan meet?" "erm yeah cool" he isnt listening. "Jay I dont know how to say this but I think I'm a lesbian so we have to break up" "yeah sound like a great idea babe" I stand up "JAY MCGUINESS WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU?!" he looks at me and sighs. "Sorry babe my minds just not with it today" I sit down and take his hand "You've been like this alot lately babe, please talk to me!" He looks up and kisses my forehead "I really dont deserve you! Honestly babe its nothing and your right I shouldnt be ignoring you!" He cups my chin in his hands and kisses me softly on the lips "I love you Carlie" I blush scarlette before kissing him back "Dont say it unless you mean it" He looks at me softly

"Of course I mean it, you mean the world to me! you're my everything Carlie! You're the first thing I think of when I wake up and the last thing I think of when I go to bed, you mean everything to me! And I know I havent been acting like it much recently but thats coz I dont wanna drag you into whats going on right now. I love the bones off you Carlie"  Tears well in my eyes, we've been together 6 months and I believed every word he just said to me. "I love you to Jay" is all I can croak out.

Jay wraps his arms around me and rocks me there back and forth. Its a momment I will NEVER forget. I just want to stay like this forever. Slowly Jay places his index finger under my chin and lifts my head up to face him. He places a soft, tender kiss on my lips. "Shall we go watch a movie or stand here like muppets?" I giggle and take his hand to lead him to the couch.

*Jay's POV

I meant everything I said to Carlie. I really do think I've fallen in love with her. She means everything to me and I want to protect her and all that stuff. I do feel bad about ignoring her though, its just all this stuff with Nathan. I'm really worried about him. He's nit himself, he's jumpy and he can deny it all he want but I know he's been having nightmares. He's quiet all the time and when we have writing sessions he alway seems distracted. Like theres something perminantly on his mind and when we're at home he hardly leaves his room. I'm not the only one worried Tom was really freaked after Naths mini breakdown the other day. I think Max has something to do with all this, but I cant say anything tilll I have proper evidence. Its really frustrating as I know Nathan will not admit whats going on.

I sigh in frustration and Carlie looks up at me so I smile at her. She eyes me suspiciously "I wish you'd tell me what your thinking" Her eyes look sad, full of longing. I wrap my arms around her, "You reall dont want to know what I'm thinking right now baby" she breaks out of my arms and looks at me

"try me"

"what?"

"I said try me, tell me whats going on! and dont say nothing or else you can forget me staying over tonight" I let out a breath of frustration and start to explain everything, it actually feels good to unload onto someone. Once I've finished explaining Carlie looks at the floor and sighs "Poor Nath" I nod "Yeah I know its shit, I just wish he'd open up to someone" and as if on cue the door opens and in walks Charly. I look from Carlie to Charly back to Carlie and an idea pops into my head. "WHAT?!" Charly says to us. I look at her "Have you heard from Nath today?" She shakes her head "I tried calling him to check if we were still on for tommorow and he never picked up, he hasnt been answering his phone all day today" Alarm bells start ringing.

He's usually attached to that phone so why would'nt he be answering? "Why whats going on?" Charly asks, Carlie answers for me "Jay just needed to get hold of him thats all" Charly shrugs before walking upstairs and carlie speaks "Right we cant tell her, if he wants to open up to her he should do it in his own time without being made to think he's being pressured ok? and whay do you look so worried?" I sigh "I left him along in the house with Max this morning after he'd pissed him off" Carlie's look goes from confused to a mixture of worry and anxiety "and now he's not picking up his phone"

Carlie puts a hand on my shoulder "He's probably just lost his phone, why dont we go round? I'm meant to be staying anyway tonight" I nod and Carlie goes to get her stuff. I cant resist phoning Nath, "Hi its Nathan cant take your call right now so leave a message I guess" I sigh in frustration and leave a message "Nath pick up your bloody phone!" I hang up.

We arrive home and I see Tom and Siva sat at the table, "alright lads where you been today then?" Tom looks up and hands me a beer "Just recorded a killer track!" I nod in apreciation. "You havent heard from Nath today have you?" Tom shakes his head. "We got back a couple of hours ago just as Max was leaving and apparently he went up to his room after you left and hasnt been out since, we went and knocked on the door asking if he wanted chinese and stuff and he just ignored us" I nod, worry starting to creep over me. "How did Max seem when He left" "well worried I guess" maybe Max isnt rhe coz if Naths mood recently? oh for fuck sake I dont know!

I go upstairs and to Nathans door. I knock. No answer. I knock again. "FUCK OFF!" oh so he's still alive. "Nath please we're all worried" no answer. I take a deep breather and open the door...

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dun dun dun! what does Jay find on the other side of the door? well I dont know myself yet so I need to have a think ;) oh and the viocemail bit was made up haha I'm sure Naths answering message thing is much more interesting! :L oh and sorry this is rather bad and late and stuff. would have been up earlier but there was a minor incident O.o wont go into details :) hope you like! much love Ellz xxx