I Cant Do This Anymore (Nathan Sykes fanfiction)

A little confession

Just a really quick sidenote

I know I've probably lost a lot of readers coz of the slow updates and this make me really sad :( So heres the confession, I am so so sorry about everything. One of my old school "friends" found this acount. I have been picked on so much because I'm "such a fag" "what kind of weirdo writes this sort of thing" "Always new you were weird but never this much". Now I dont normally care what people think of me but I'm having some troubles at the momment (when dont I?) and I just couldnt cope. I even contemplated cutting again for the first time in a year. I just gave up, thinking I would never really be a proper write if all I wrote was fanfiction and thought "This must be so weird for the boys aswell knowing people write fantasies about them" so just went of fanfiction all together, writing, reading, everything. :(

But a few months ago and I was on youtube and accidently stumbled on a "danisnotonfire" video and from that momment on I was hooked, I actually fell in love with him and Phil and everytime I felt low I would watch their videos coz they made me laugh so much, Anyways this is relevent because; I watched a video where they visit tumblr, and saw the bit about fanfics ans seeing that they actually didnt care and found it funny and that made me think, maybe its nothing to be ashamed of? And I started reading "phan" fics and the love for fanfiction was restored! 

So yeah thats whats been happening these past few weeks :) I am back and back for good this time! I have so many ideas for a sequel and even new fics all together as well as a new obsession with these boys! (thats the youtubers if you're not following). Thanks to anyone who is still reading for being so patient with the fail that is my life :) oh and if anyone else is obsessed with Dan and Phil like me, please say! Send me links to fics (nothing to dirty mind coz I'm an innocent child ;) ) and follow me on twitter and stuff coz its always hard to merge into a new fandom :( My twitter is @littleellen_123 :) and help me  be part of the fantastic fouresome fandom :D much love to all my readers, your comments and kind words really do bring a smile to my face after a crap day at work or whatever and I genuinly look forward to coming on here everynight to read them :) You guys keep me going! 

so yeah (god I say that a lot :S) that is my little confession that turned into a massive one :S much love

Ellz </3 xxx