Good Cop Gone Bad ~ Rewritten

47| love

•Aria Marino•

It has been over a week since Matteo and I split and overall it is just not going good. The nightmares are getting bad, I can barely even wake up in the mornings, going to work is feeling more and more like a burden everyday.
It has just been my dad and I and he has been a great support. Luca has been here sometimes as well. He is thinking of staying in Italy permanently now which I think would be great.
        My dad is leaving in just two days and I am pretty sad about it.
        Everything just feels weird. Every morning, I would normally eat breakfast with Matteo, make him breakfast, talk to and text him all day, wait for him to get home, we would spend every waking moment together and we loved it. But now it was all gone.
       He has been texting me constantly, calling me occasionally trying to get me to talk to him and it has taken everything in me not to reply.
       It just all feels so weird and horrible. Because I do love him. I don't think there is anything that could change that, I can't help but love him. He has been the best thing that has ever happened to me.
       As I sit at my desk at work, thinking about all of this and holding back tears, Ermes and Flora are walking around. Flora has been fine and actually a lot nicer but Ermes has been more of a pain in the ass.
       But just as he is about to talk to me, I get a text from Laura.

laurita 🤗

laurita 🤗: hey I'm really sorry about all the shit I said but like I was just upset and i know that's just not an excuse but it's just like upsetting that so many people would want a relationship and love like you and matteo and it's all going away for something that just isn't worth it

me: what do you mean??

laurita 🤗: the way you guys love each other. it's the kind of love people dream about. he didn't just want you and have you because he could, he treated you like you were a prize to be won and once he did win, he never let it be forgotten what you deserved and were worth. he didn't just bring you along with him he showed you off to everyone like you were a bar of gold. he took you to his family and they all loved you too. he held you when you needed it, he understood you like no one else, when something was wrong he knew and he made sure you talked to him to get it out. the way you guys looked at each other was something straight out of a movie. the way you guys stared at each other like there was no where else on this planet you would rather be no matter what happened, the way he understood your mind in a way not even I can, it's absolutely insane. your love for each other is something irreplaceable and it just sucks that it's all going away. and it's ruining both of you. both of you are fucking falling apart.

       I ran to the restroom and stared at the text, my heart shattering all over again.
       Your love for each other is something irreplaceable. Both of you are fucking falling apart.

•••••

       Getting home, I find a bouquet of tulips sitting in front of the door. I sighed, picking it up and bringing them inside. But when I opened the door, I stopped right away.
        Everyone is here. Aless, Rafi, Sofia, Allegra, Laura, Luca, Dad, Lia Emma, even mamma.
        "Hi," I said awkwardly and almost in a gasp as they had shocked me.
        "Hi tesoro," mamma says and hugs me. I hug her back then everyone else comes to hug me as well.
       I place the flowers in the counter and we all sit down in the living room. "Do you want to watch a movie?" Sofia asks and I nod.
       "Listen, guys don't get me wrong, I love having you guys over, but what exactly were you doing here in my apartment before I got home?" I ask them.
        Most of them laugh, and Sofia is the only one who explains. "Well, we brought the flowers, they're from Matteo. And we've all been trying to support Matteo through everything but he has been ten times sassier since everything happened and he does not want to be around anyone, so we decided to leave him alone for now and now we're here. He's been throwing himself into work a lot too. What movie do you want to watch?" She asks.
       My phone starts vibrating against the couch and everyone looks at me but I just ignore it. "Are you not going to answer that?" Rafi asks cautiously.
Lia smacks him on the head while Aless tells him to shut the fuck up. "It's probably Matteo," I shrug, not wanting to cry in front of them all.
"And how the fuck do you know that?" Laura asks me.
"He's like the only person that calls me," I explain to her, making her looked at me shocked.
"I call you all the time!" she says defensively.
I roll my eyes at her. "Yes but you're sitting right next to me! Why would you be calling me if you're three inches away?" I ask her, my voice coming out harshly.
She rolls her eyes. "Whatever," she says.
There is a knock at the door and we all turn to it, but no one moves. "Laura go get the door," I say and she gasps, smacking me on the arm.
"I don't live here. You go get it." she says, but I roll my eyes at her.
"I'll go get it. Jeez." My dad says, getting off the couch and going towards the door.
I smile. As long as I don't have to get up.
My dad opens the door to reveal my mom of all fucking people. Funnily enough, he shuts the door in her face but she only knocks again and harder.
He rolls his eyes but opens the door again. She walks in, completely ignoring him and goes straight to Luca. "My baby, oh my gosh I have not seen you in so long!" she says, hugging him while Luca just sits there, not reciprocating any of her actions.
Meanwhile, she doesn't even look at me or Laura. Mamma grabs my hand in hers and squeezes it as an act of reassurance and I smile at her. "Who the hell are you?" Aless asks roughly.
"I am Aria, Luca, and Laura's mother," she replies.
They all have a face if realization. "Oh that's why no one liked when you walked in," Sofia says, making us all laugh.
My mother rolls her eyes, "From the looks of it, you are a mother and indicating that my children do not like me is hurtful, would it not be?" she asks harshly, but I know Sofia. She does not let her mother affect her at all, she knows what she is saying and she means every word of it.
She won't take it back. "Well yes, but only if it had merit. If someone said it to me, I wouldn't care because I know that I am a good mother. My children love me, and I don't treat them like shit. You on the other hand, I don't think so." Sofia says, shrugging her shoulders.
"The only times I ever treated my daughters any differently than my son was when they did something that warranted that treatment," my mother lies, making my father groan. Luca rolls his eyes and pries himself out of my mothers arms and sits down with Laura and I.
        "First of all, no one mentioned you treating them differently than each other, we just said in general, they were treated badly. Secondly, the fact that they all reacted badly to your presence and none of them want you here proves our point." Aless chimes in, defending all of us and his wife.
        My mother rolls her eyes and walks over to my father. "And why are you doing here?" she asks him.
       "I am visiting my children. What are you doing here?" he asks, looking angry.
        I have not seen them interact since before they separated, so this was very weird. "Yeah, right. Your children." she scoffs. What the fuck does she mean by that?
"What the fuck do you mean, Aurora?" My dad asks angrily, her name escaping his lips practically in a hiss.
"Well, I'm just saying we have both been unfaithful to each other, especially in the early stages of marriage-" she begins and my father cuts her off.
He stands up, face level with her as she is leaning onto the armrest of the couch. "I never once was unfaithful you. Your mental state is so off the charts you would probably lose your shit if I ever walked near another woman!" he says, raising his voice.
"As I was saying," she continues, "You were not the only man I had relations with around the time Aria was conceived." she says, looking slyly at me, almost looking proud of herself.
My father looks at her in disbelief. "Tell me you are joking, Aurora." he says. My dad might not be my dad? Oh my god. "She is my daughter, not the daughter of some piece of scum who didn't have the mind to come visit even once." he yells in her face.
        "Dad?" I look up at him from me seat, my eyes swelling with tears. He looks down at me sadly, grabbing my arm. I stand up with him  and he engulfs me in a hug, pressing a kiss to the top of my head.
         "You are my daughter, principessa," he says softly, holding me to him. I hope so.
"Sometimes people change, clearly you haven't. Even though you have been given opportunity after opportunity to do so." Sofia says to my mother.
        Aless stood up from his seat, walking towards my mother. "You need to leave," he orders her, pointing towards the door.
        She stands up straight, "I wasn't enjoying my time here anyways," she says, walking out of the apartment, slamming the door behind her.
        I need Matteo right now. He's the first person I think of when anything happens, good or bad, and when it's bad, it's his comfort that makes it better. He makes everything so much better.
        "Do not listen to her, principessa. She is psychotic. You are my daughter." Dad says softly, stroking my hair. His psychotic remark made me laugh, so he did too.
         "Are you okay?" Sofia asks me once my dad and I let go of the hug.
          I shrug, "A lot has happened these past few weeks," I say and she nods, hugging me.
"We have to go, Matteo and I have a lot of work to do with Lev," Aless says, grabbing Sofia's hand but she pulls away.
"I am going to stay. Maybe we can go out for dinner later?" she asks, but Aless looks skeptical. "Please?" she asks.
        Aless finally caved in, "Fine. But I am sending a guard  here as soon as I leave." he says. Sofia nods and smiles, Aless leaves.
        "Well, Allegra and I are going home," Laura says, standing to hug me. I hug both her and Allegra before they leave.
        "Where do you want to go to dinner?" I ask Sofia.
        She gasps, "You know what I have really been craving? Morelli's pasta, it is so delicious. It is even walking distance from here!" she says excitedly and I smile at her.
       "Do you guys want to go?" I ask my dad and brother. They both nod, and in just a few minutes, we are all walking to the restaurant, two bodyguards followed behind us.
When we arrive at the restaurant, we are seated immediately, and order very quickly. Then, a group walks in. It's Matteo, and Aless, and a few other people.
We have not seen each other since the day I left. We broke up. I have not answered his calls or texts, nothing. I am not ready to see him again.
"I am so sorry, Aria. I really did not know that they would be here. He said they had a lot of work to do. I really did not know." she says, looking very apologetic.
I shrug, "It's okay, Sof."
The entire time in the restaurant, I am very aware that he is there. There is not a moment that goes by where I don't think about the fact that he is near me. I feel like he is staring at me.
When we finish, the waiter tells me that our tab has already been paid. By Matteo.
And when I get home, I lock myself in my room and cry. Because it hurts like hell.

•••••

I AM GOING TO TWEAK OUT AND CRY I CANT DO THIS ANYMORE I NEED THIS SCHOOL YEAR TO BE OVER

anyways that's over bye bye

~elle 🌸