Mistakes (Yuri X Male!Reader)

Chapter 19

A/N : This chapter will talk about sensitive topics. If those make you uncomfortable : self harm, sexual assault, neglect; please understand that it is NOT to diminish those topics. Now, please, have a good read.

People sometime asked things at others, may it be a small favor, money, or keeping something secret. They soon put a word on that type of behavior, trust.

Trust was a strange concept from the beginning. What is trust ? A feeling that makes you rely on someone ? A feeling that makes you want to lessen your mental burden ? 

And how can this trust be birthed ? 

Can it be birthed with time ? With acts ? Nobody knew the true answer to that, but everyone accepted the fact that trust was a creation of time and respect from humans.

But then, humans could betray this trust, by not doing that small favor, to giving the money back, or making a secret open for the public. As always, if there is a positive side, there is a negative side. Making it the umpteenth fabrication of humanity neutral. 

Also, how can one feel trust ? Is it something you expect to feel with a long-time friend ? But then, some people trusted people who knew each other for less than a day. Is it something you expect to be returned ? But then, a person can betray your trust like he never meant to build this feeling with you.

Trust is like money. You can exchange if it fits your needs. You can trust someone with a task, and if it's complete, you get more trust, almost like an investment. But then, if someone you trusted something into, and this person didn't do anything, your trust might be less than before.

Of course, losing trust wasn't something that simple. People can lose their trust little by little. By committing small undesirable things, like talking about your problems to someone else. Or by doing some heavy things, like lying about something that was already putting you in a uncomfortable position.

Y/N had experienced betrayal of his trust, more than once, unfortunately. 

Arata betrayed him as he was the one who started the gossips on him. About how he was violent with his then-girlfriend. About how he flirted with every girls he thought that could be a 'good one time sex'. About how he said to her than showing her feelings is pathetic. About how he would force himself on Mei, who tried to stop him.

Mei betrayed him as she was the one who did all of that. She was verbally abusive and neglectful. She was flirting and sleeping with numerous boys. She assaulted and nearly raped Y/N several times. 

Of course, everyone indulged in those rumors, not wanting to check with Y/N if it was true. Y/N quickly became the pariah of the school, everyone tried to have problems with him. But Y/N managed to stop those escalating troubles correctly.

But it made his mind heavy, he found himself not wanting to go to school anymore when he was sick with the flu. So, he willingly put himself into illness. Eating something that wasn't edible anymore, staying out in the cold after taking a shower, or just lying about some headaches. 

It didn't work all the time, and each time he came back in school, this situation escalated further. Now Y/N wasn't coming in school because he went to another middle school to try his luck with some other girls, beating everyone who stopped him.

His school made Y/N a walking demon, a toxic boy who needed to be exiled at all cost. And so, he found himself more alone than before. Arata, who was still his friend, stopped talking to him, and even partaking into the moral bullying he suffered.

Mei, who just loved seeing Y/N in pain, teased him in public. One day he had enough, and yelled things at her. How she was horrible, how he couldn't see his own body without disgusting himself, how she played with him.