Mistakes (Yuri X Male!Reader)

Chapter 20

Traumas can be felt lingering on your mind when a certain action would make you uncomfortable, scared, or angry. 

In general, they are a response to some events that made you scared, unable to react due to the sheer ugliness of the act. And in response, your brain tries to search for every branch of action possible.

One can cry, one can be scared, pissed off, or not react at all. To some degree, everyone have the same way to deal with traumas. They would do anything in their power to not repeat those things to others. It was awful to suffer, so people couldn't bear the thought of sharing the same fucked up things they went through.

Some people would talk about their traumas, thinking that it will lessen it. Some would not talk about it, but will share it if cornered. Some would share it if it was the best thing to do.

Y/N shared his traumas because he wanted them to understand why he was like that. His experience wasn't something he wished someone to live. Well, maybe Arata and Mei, but those persons couldn't feel traumas, they were emotionless after all.

He grunted as he saw that his phone was on, looking at it, he saw that his mom tried to call him. At 6:02AM. She must've receive a message from high school saying that Y/N didn't go the day before.

He looked at his right, only to see Yuri's calm and relaxed sleeping expression. Then he also felt her left hand being intertwined with his right one as her right arm was thrown on his torso. It was as if Yuri was semi-cuddling Y/N. Which made him smile.

After all, he truly felt that Yuri was the one who could completely help him and cure his fears. 

He was happy that he managed to share his past with the club. Of course, he initially feared that they would just say that he should just suck it up and forget about it, as a man should. But they were so supportive, so gentle, it felt like bliss.

Of course, Yuri did more than that, she stayed with him when he needed her company the most. He didn't want to be alone, may it be physically or mentally. So when Yuri stayed with him the night, he was at ease, all of his parasite thoughts disappeared.

Then she shared that she also cut herself before. Y/N couldn't say anything, as the reason she did it was the same he did. But he mentally promised that he should always be there for her, no matter what. He wanted to build his relationship correctly, without forgetting about the foundation. 

He quickly smiled to himself as he took his phone and went out of Yuri's grab. He stood up silently as he quickly looked at Yuri, only to see that her sleeping expression was the same. He nodded to himself as he went in his bathroom, closed the door behind him and called his mother.

"Mister L/N, why did you miss school yesterday ?" His mom's voice was heard in his phone, showing a bit of annoyance. "Hello mom, yes I'm fine thank you." Y/N said, quietly chuckling to himself. "Answer my question, Y/N." His mom said, he could hear her foot tapping on something.

"Well, better to take it from the beginning." He said, then managed to explain what happened on Friday, his week-end and the day before. "Oh my, sorry Y/N I didn't know. Are you good now ?" His mom said, shifting her voice into a worried but caring tone. "Good, I still don't know, but I'm better. Thanks to them." Y/N said, smiling a bit, thankful to have friends like them.

"I'm glad to hear it. Do you perhaps have a favorite person in this little group ?" His mom said, he could hear her smirk behind her voice, so he indulged into her little game. "Yep, I can't wait for you to return to meet her. She's fantastic." Y/N said as he noticed the bathroom's door was quietly opened by a small centimeter. He smiled to himself knowing that Yuri was spying on him. So he went and opened fully the door, only to reveal his girlfriend.