Her Hatred Patient.

Chapter 36

Deepthi paused there and raised her head and as expected she experienced his intense stare through her soul. 

Her throat dried up and her pulse rate was out of her control. She had his effect and nervousness covered her and it was clearly shown. She immediately bent her head down.

D Pov: "No matter, don't respond to him. He is triggering you. Don't react"

With this, she calmly did her work, handed the sample to the lab technician, and apologized on Parthiv's behalf before he left.

P: "I am waiting for your answer."

Deepthi took a deep breath, turned to him, and started to yell,

"You want me to reply?

Are you sure about that?

How could you even think that I love you?

I didn't know that you were this good at acting like nothing happened between us.

In reverse, you are asking me.

Maybe............ Maybe you could forget over time since I am not the only girl, and it's not your first time, right?

But, you surely gave me the scars that unlocked my nightmares to this date. 

Could you even imagine how much pain I have endured over the years?

You never know.

I don't know why my fate had this grudge over me.

Every time I confront you, I will be the one who should suffer. It's still a mystery why everything works in your favor.

I did the most shameless thing just to fulfill my financial requirements then. I left with no option but to accept your offer.

You never knew, that I was regretting every passing moment.

I shouldn't ask you to help me. I shouldn't choose this path.

That regret is killing me to this day by asking a question, Do you need to do a sin to achieve what you want?

I never had the guts to answer that.

I maybe wish that it would be great if I were a doctor. But at least I can live peacefully.  

Now, even though I achieved what I always dreamed of, it didn't give me any satisfaction or appreciation for my hard work.

Because no matter, how much I deny it, the fact is your presence gave that to me.

I never thought I would serve myself to a pervert like you.

Even that night, I was crying there helplessly, but you didn't have any little compassion for me.

 You finally stopped chasing me when I left the note warning that I would die if reencountered you. Didn't you? 

Didn't you know the basic thing that you should never touch a woman without her consense?

yes, I accepted your offer, but your pressure made me accept and I am punishing myself for that.

You never know the pain of a helpless woman. I thought of quitting everything at that moment.

What could be more unfortunate, when I couldn't share that with my family?

I was crushed between the current situation and my values.

Dad's health was worse and our family went through a tough time yet you raised that topic in front of my dad.

I had no one to share with. I must not share this but I was unable to carry this pain. 

I always wish it would be great if I quit my dream and everything and stayed home rather than living like this.  

I was living physically, but dying inside. 

Even after now, I tried a lot to escape from you. But the pattern is still repeating.

Why don't you understand the fact that every time I was trying to move away, you were trying to get closer? 

Why don't you think from the other perspective?

You are very good at making 'if this else nothing'. Surprisingly god is with you.

neither I can't reveal this nor accept the offer. 

I desperately want to go back to the time, when I was deciding my career like every other girl does, but this time it's not this profession.

Have you ever thought about the family you were in? Your parents were believing blindly and you are breaking their trust.

The worst thing is, our fathers were maintaining a good bond, and guess what, even god doesn't understand what I went through.

It's like 'bleeding stopped, but scars were there to remind you'.

I never felt bad about our financial crisis because the hope in me believed firmly that would achieve my aim one day and that would solve our problems.

But I loathed myself for taking support from you.

I cursed myself that I was mistakenly born as a girl. If the gender got reversed, everything would be different. Even now, whenever I feel like sharing that with someone, I have none. Probably in my lifetime, I shouldn't reveal this and maybe this secret dies in me. 

Just remember one thing, you will be paying for this stuff. Maybe not now, but definitely one day. 

I curse you there will be a day when your parents will know the truth. You will be getting slapped tight.

But, I still stick to the agreement I have signed then with heavy despair, I will be not revealing your truth. 

And yeah, please leave me. I don't have anything to give. I was living a drained lifestyle but acting happily with a lifetime of unhealed scars.

I know, that I may not be the deserved person to say this, but please treat me as a human and leave me.

I want to live my life till I die and want to work. That's it. I don't want to face you or discuss it with you. But if I didn't open up even at this moment, chances were there that you might think that I couldn't forget you.

Yes, I will never forget you for the thorns you threw at me. 

Now, what do you want exactly? You got my body, and if you want your money back, I will return it to you one day.

If my presence triggers you, I will be resigning from this job, but only you should leave me.

So what exactly do you want from me?"

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