Apologies after breaking heart ♡︎

Chapter 12: The culprit

First pov:

*Sigh*
(I don't have any idea about whatever is happening in Khao's company. I hope everything is alright. What if .... His company have downfall!?? No no I should be positive

Oh godd why am I such a negative person? I'm sure Khao can manage everything easily. But the worry on his face was so clear that for sure it must be a big issue.

I'll just pray everything to be get well soon. I can't see him stressed.

He is already soo stressed because of the thing he did to me unknowingly on the wedding day and he's still very guilty.

Even though he abused me....the guilt on his face, his actions have proved everything that he's trying to improve himself.
I was really heartbroken when I saw Khaotung naked on the cold tiles of the bathroom floor that day. I think I know why he was naked.

I think he tried to take care of his erection and sexual arousal by masturbating himself so that he can't do anything to me.... And that also when he was drunk and can hardly control himself!

Such a good guy right.

He is a human and human makes mistakes. He made a mistake and now he's guilty so definitely it's my responsibility to forgive him as I'm his husband. After all even he's a drunkard atleast he tried not to harm me. Unlike my father....

When I saw him cutting veggies and cooking for me and also taking glances at me while cooking... It melted my heart... That moment I wanted to hug him and kiss him.

But I don't want the food to get burnt!

But I'm sure that he thinks I have still not forgave him. How to make him believe that I have already forgave him? He overthinks soo much sometimes for silly things... Gets worried easily....have anger issues, drinks whenever he wants and have insomnia, and also he's a smoker.

There must be something which he's hiding. There's something which I don't know.

His past? Or maybe ....his family matter? I don't have any idea but ...I want to know whatever is the problem.

I want him to love himself. I want him to take care of himself. I want to show him the love i have for him in my heart. Yes! I'm already starting to love him. It's no more liking or a crush or a thing between formal arranged  couples- I'm starting to love him and I'll show my affection towards him in every way possible.

That's the reason why I kissed him today and then sat on his lap and allowed him to take me. I allowed him to make love with me again to show that I'm no more angry or disappointed in him and I hope he understood that.

When I kissed him I was feeling a whole jungle of Butterflies in my stomach and not gonna lie I was getting wet below there. But faith.... Ughhh we were interrupted by his employee!

Ummm....maybe I should cook his favourite food today? Since I'm also feeling quite better now after taking rest.

I swear nobody has ever taken this much care of me whenever I'm sick except Khaotung. Yes  mom loved me but she never stayed at home because of my useless drunkard father who used to torture my mom. And after she died.... My father became even worse towards me.

This is the reason why I'm starting to love this beautiful man.)

Finally after drowned in my ocean of thoughts for more than one hour I went to the kitchen and started to prepare for lunch or dinner whatever Khaotung's going to eat. Because he said he will come soon and now I want to make him happy by cooking his favourite food.

I took about all the required ingredients, veggies, meat.

"Um.... He like brownies so.... I think i should make it for him! He would be so happy to see it!" I chuckled at my thoughts