Apologies after breaking heart ♡︎

Chapter 24: ‼️ Khaotung's past

(‼️ TRIGGER WARNING ⚠️
THE FOLLOWING CHAPTER INCLUDES SUCIDE ATTEMPT AND DISTURBING SCENES WITH ABUSE. READ AT YOUR OWN RISK. ‼️ )

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First pov:

"Mew is my... Mew is my ex boyfriend. " Khaotung said while bowing his head and shutting his eyes thightly, drops of tears falling on his pants.

The ground below me started to shake... I felt like I'm going to faint. I thought.... I thought that it was a one sided love by Mew.

But now this ....

Am I... Am I trusting a wrong person?

I pulled off my hand back which was kept on his shoulder. Khaotung opened his eyes and looked in my direction.

"Please listen to everything I say carefully na? I have many things to tell you. I don't want to hide it from you anymore." Khaotung said while his voice was cracking.

*Sigh* i looked on the other side breaking the eye contact and nodded for him to continue further. "Proceed...." I said

"Actually...

From a very small age I was envyed by everyone because of my wealth. My parents never loved me. I was a mistake... They had a one night stand but my mom got pregnant.

Later when she took pills for abortion... It didn't not work properly. It was too late...

My mom never loved me neither my dad did. The only person who looked after me at that time was Mew.

Actually it was high school time. Mew and I were really good friends. He was poor , and i was rich so I used to give him everything that he wants.

Slowly slowly our friendship grew stronger. We both use to stay together sometimes in my house, and sometimes in his house.

One day my mom died just infront of me. Even though she never loved me still I used to care about her alot. *Sniff* I'was... I was broken into pieces.

My dad... My dad never loved me. He only threw money on me. He never cares if I'm alive or I'm dead. So my depression started to get worse.

I have depression, anxiety from a very long time, but these things made it worse. My father was always so much dedicated to his work that if there was fluctuations in his business then he would come and beat me. He always abused me till now too.

My father used to force me on every shit! I couldn't even breath on my own choice. He still controls me like as if I'm his robot...

I started smoking and drinking alcohol. It used to reduce my stress. Slowly it become an addiction for me till now ,and ... I was very young at that time."

*Sniff* (Khaotung was crying alot. Hiccuping and sniffng, mucus and tears flowing rapidly.)

I finally looked at him. He looked pathetic... He looked broken. It was breaking me so much...

Khaotung continued-

"So.... One day......

One day I finally decided to take my life...

I tried to kill myself and get free from this world..."

I was filled with horror. Khaotung tried to kill himself? He tried to suicide. I held his hands tightly, which made him break down even more. He was crying so much... I stared to pay his back. I didn't say anything in between because I don't want to interrupt whatever he was telling.

Khaotung closed his eyes and then opened them . He looked down with sad eyes.

Khaotung continues-

"I was so lonely so broken... Before taking my life I called Mew, my bestfriend and told him that I will kill myself that day. After calling him he tried to call me multiple times.

I started to drink alot of alcohol, drunk so much until i was numb and I was out of my mind.

After that... I... I went upstairs... To the balcony and then climbed on the fence. The air was cool  that day... The weather was so good. I still remember... I mailed and then while I was just going to jump ......

........      at that time Mew came out of nowhere and then grabbed me from behind and pulled me into a hug.

That day he saved me....

Mew and i... We both slept together while hugging each other. I was crying in his arms so much... He comforted me the whole night.

After that slowly slowly i started to heal alot. But still I used to drink and drawn myself into alcohol. I love to loose myself in between the smoke of ciggerates and then forget all my worries.

(Khaotung looked up in the sky while tears were still flowing from his red eyes. I was looking at him with worry.)

Khaotung continues -

"I don't know why.... But slowly i started to feel differently about Mew and I stared to like him more than a friend. I wanted to kiss him and do things which him which normal couples does.

So finally on the last day of our school graduation day, i proposed him and....
he accepted my proposal and we finally started to date each other. We both were happy...."

Khaotung stopped saying and took a long deep breath while sighing. I held both of his hands tightly and I wanted to hug him.

But what was stopping me from hugging Khaotung?

Why ? Just why am I not able to spread my arms and pulled him into a hug? Why am I not able to kiss him and comfort him?

Now I was crying too. With that fact that Khaotung went through so much... None of his parents loved him. Atleast my mother used to love me. But... His? His is so much more worse than mine...

And more if all I was getting a tingling feeling about Mew. Yes I was jealous. So damn jealous.... I wish it was me instead of that bitch Mew.

Wait... If they used to love each other this much and mew also accepted the proposal then ... What exactly happened that both of them are now in such bad terms....??

Oh my god... My head was spinning now. But I was sitting normally... I wasn't able to proceed anything. Khaotung's father was sweet to me...

If Khaotung's father is rude towards Khao... Does that mean... This marriage...

This marriage was forced? Khaotung never loved me?

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Author's note: Hello lovelies.... Here's another chapter.

Lately I'm feeling really down...im sorry idk why but nowadays I blame myself for everything. Sorry guys...

But don't worry I won't leave y'all hanging  I will complete my books for y'all lovelies ♥️

Take care always. Bye~