bad guy | b.e.

The end of us | 032

J O R D Y N

Today is the day I do something I'm dreading and will probably regret heavily, but need to do.

I'm breaking up with Billie.

I feel so sick just thinking about it, but I can't be with her after what Normani told me.

I'm going to apologize to her later as well because I know I was pretty harsh. I was just feeling too many emotions all at once.

I'm having a really time accepting that this is going to happen and I don't want it to because I love her, but she's not changing and I can't be with someone who doesn't think I'm worth changing for.

It's just not fair.

"Jordyn, are you okay, sweetheart?"

I look up from my lap and see my dad, looking at me. "Yeah, I'm fine."

"Something's wrong. What is it?" He asks. "Um," I sniffle. "I'm breaking up with Billie."

"What? Why?" He furrows his brows. "She's embarrassed of me." I sigh. "Are you kidding me? I knew she was trouble, Jordyn!" He says. "I'm gonna fucking slap h-"

"Dad, don't. It's not a big deal." I shake my head. "It is, honey. She's hurt you so many times, Jord. You don't deserve it." He tells me. "It's fine." I say.

"It's not. I'm done seeing my daughter be so sad over a girl who's horrible to her. This is gonna be a good thing for you, Jordyn." Dad says.

"I love her so much." I tell him, tears filling my eyes. Dad hugs me and kisses my forehead. "I know you do, sweetheart. She's not good for you though."

"I know." I mutter. "You're gonna be okay, alright? You're gonna find someone better." He assures me.

I wanted Billie to be better.

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I'm on the way to Billie's house now because I didn't just want to break up with her over text. My heart is beating out of my chest right now.

I hate this.

But sometimes you have to let people you love go.

When I pull up to her house, I get out of my car and knock on the door.

Billie opens it and smiles when she sees me. "Oh my god, you're here. I've missed you so much."

"I missed you too." I say quietly, looking down at the floor. She hugs me, but I don't quite hug back.

Billie walks me to her room and we sit down on her bed. "So you said there was something you wanted to tell me?"

I take a deep breath before speaking. "I don't know how to say it because it hurts, so I'm just gonna say it. Billie, I don't think we should be together anymore. Normani told me the truth. You said you don't wanna be seen publicly with me."

"Jordyn, I didn't mean it, I swear." Billie shakes her head quickly. "Please save it because I'm done. We're breaking up because I can't deal with you hurting me anymore." I tell her. "Baby, I'm so sorry. I'm just- I'm still trying to work on it." She says.

"I don't care, Billie." I sigh. "You need to fix yourself without me because apparently I'm not worth fixing yourself for."

"Jord, you are, I'm ju-"

"I'm sorry, Bil." I mumble, tears falling down my face as I avoid eye contact with her.

"Jordyn, don't do this. We- we can work this out." Billie pleads. "I'm sorry." I say, getting up from her bed. "Please, baby, I love you.' I hear Billie say as I walk out of her room.

I bite my lip to avoid saying it back to her. I hear her start to follow after me, so I quickly run out of the house and get into my car. Though it's hard to see from tears blurring my vision, I start driving back home.

I feel sick.

I can't believe I just did that.

My heart hurts so much.

It might've only been a little bit together, but I still loved her so much.

But I needed to do this.

B I L L I E

I run after Jordyn, but by the time I get to the front door, she's already pulling out of the driveway. "Fuck." I say to myself, wiping away my tears even though they keep coming.

"Bil, what's wrong?" Mom asks from the kitchen. "I saw Jordyn run out. Is she okay?"

"She broke up with me, Mom."

My mom comes out and hugs me tightly. I cry in her arms and she rubs my back. "I'm so sorry, honey. I'm so sorry." She repeats.

I can't believe this is real.

I fucking ruined everything we had.

Why am I like this? Why can't I just be a good person?

Jordyn's right. I hurt her a lot.

I'm such an idiot.

This is the end of us.

a/n 🤍

this is so short sorry but imma try and have another update out sometime tonight or tmr

i also almost cried writing this

my bad guys!