Desperate Measures

I Can Do It With a Broken Heart

A few months later...

July 22nd - Edmonton KDAYS 2012

I was already awake when my alarm went off at three in the goddamn morning for this stupid fucking redeye to Edmonton for KDAYS then down to Medicine Hat for another summer show. Hell at least we're doing summer shows this year. I grabbed my phone off the bedside table shutting the alarm off as I stretched a little bit as Matt was still fast asleep as per usual. "Matt wake up." I softly shook him as he groaned. "Baby we have that redeye to Edmonton in a few hours." He turned over putting the pillow over his head. "Just a few more minutes...it is way too fucking early." I smiled getting up as I didn't even sleep as my insomnia was acting up quite a bit. "You better get that sexy ass up out of bed in five and get dressed. I'll go put on some coffee." I said walking out of the room as I already got myself dressed about an hour ago.

I leaned against the counter turning on the coffee machine as I loaded it with coffee an hour ago as my head was just killing me from this trial medicine since I just got another dose yesterday. Luckily I think it's working so far but man these side effects are kicking my ass. I heard Matt walk into the kitchen placing his hand on my back. "You feeling okay?" I looked up nodding a little smiling a little as he grabbed his travel mug from the cupboard. "Yeah just a small headache. I'll be fine." I said grabbing my pain killers from my travel bag taking one and hope it'll help. "Did you get any sleep?" I shook my head sitting down at the barstool laying my head down on the counter. "Aw I'm sorry, I hope you get some rest on the plane at least." He said kissing my forehead as he knew I was in pain. "When do we have to leave for the airport?" I said tiredly as I got up from the chair grabbing an energy drink from the fridge as I despise coffee ironically.

"Alright we should leave in a few so we can get straight through security and meet up with the guys and all that shit. You have everything packed?" I nodded taking a sip of the energy drink as I grabbed my suitcase off the chair I left it on and my backpack for the plane. "Yup I did it all while you were sleeping. Perks of insomnia love and are you driving or am I?" I said while putting on my converse while Matt was putting on his shoes as well. "Are you okay with driving since I'm still waking up?" I nodded smiling grabbing my keys for the car opening the door and walking down to my car while Matt was locking up. It's weird that we're finally playing shows again after having months off but, I'm excited to finally perform again. Since we made the choice to push back the Face The Music Tour till January next year so I could finish my trial and all my stupid medical shit.

I heard him walk up behind me while I was putting the suitcase and bag into the back of the car as I felt his arms wrap around me. "You need some help?" I shook my head lifting his bag into the back and closing the trunk. "It's all done don't worry. Now come on let's get going." I said pulling away getting into the drivers seat shutting the door as I started to drive to the airport. Luckily the roads were empty so it was a pretty easy drive. "So are you sure that you're ready to perform tomorrow?" Matt said as I looked over at him at a stop light nodding. "Yeah I mean they cleared me about a month ago so yeah, I'll be okay don't worry." He leaned back in his seat taking a sip of his coffee as I continued driving to the airport.

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We got there about a half hour later as I got out running over to the pay stall to pay for the parking for about a week just incase anything were to happen to myself or the guys. After paying I ran back to Matt helping him with the suitcases. "Thanks and is it all paid for?" I nodded smiling as I took mine with me while we started to walk to the entrance. "Yup everything is paid for." I said walking over to the check in area once we got inside checking in my suitcase for the flight. Is it bad that I'm nervous to play tonight? Like yeah I'm all cleared but what if something happens? Or what if something happens to my mother or someone else? I sighed putting my suitcase onto the luggage belt then heading towards security just to get it over with.