Desperate Measures

Spellbound

Where we left off

Why does everything have to always fucking fall apart when I'm just getting back on my feet?! After slamming the door shut I just didn't know how to feel from loosing my mother and again not being able to say goodbye or anything. I grabbed my phone out of my pocket sitting down on the bed just needing a minute before calling Amanda up. While I was staring at my phone someone opened the door and I looked up and it was just Matt. "What do you want?" I said as he closed the door sitting down next to me. "Josh you don't have to be strong over this loss...so you can pull out of the tour. But please don't shove your feelings down because you think that you have to be strong all the time." I shook my head placing my head into my hands trying to not break into tears. "I can do the tour...and I'm not some fragile person anymore plus they probably won't let me pull out of the tour anyways." I could feel his hand on my back as I looked up at him.

"Melvin already spoke to Simkin when he found out, he didn't want to tell you when you were on stage due to what it was about. They'll let you pull out of the tour to be with your family okay? You don't have to do this damn tour if you mentally can't." I shook my head as I curled up to my knees as I never told them what the label told me about if I had to pull out of the tour due to health reasons. "What? You don't have to do the tour after loosing your mother." I sighed looking over at him and pulling up the email they sent to me last week before the tour started. "Matt they told me and sent me an email if I were to pull out of the tour they would let me go from the label. So I can't pull out of the tour so I won't be out of a job!" He picked up my phone looking at the email. "Why didn't you tell anyone that they sent you this shit? We could've defended you against this." I just shook my head as I didn't want them to fight against the label because of me.

"And I didn't want to drag you guys into my situation again. So it's all on me and I can't pull out of the tour. Now I gotta call Amanda and tell her what happened and so I can find out what's going on with Leo. I'll be okay...for now." He smiled patting my shoulder getting up and leaving the room as I called up Amanda's number taking some deep breaths and just hoping everything is okay with Leo, but considering the text she sent it can't be good. She picked up right away. "Josh hey how was the show?" She said as I rested my head up against the wall. "It was fine but what's going on with Leo? And I've got some news ontop of that." She sighed as I saw her turn on the camera as I turned on mine as it looked like she was in the hospital still.

"They did scans Josh and he has stage one stomach cancer they're going to remove the little cell which shouldn't effect him too much but I need you home please." Hearing that I caused my kid to be sick just made me break as that isn't what I wanted. "I-I can't...they'll drop me from the label if I drop out of the tour and can everything bad just stop happening all at once?!" I yelled tossing a beanie bag from the side table at the wall. "Okay okay what is going on cause you said you had news. And just speak to them and tell them what's happening. And maybe it's time to try to find a new label if they're being this harsh." I placed the phone on the bed wiping my tears but I couldn't stop crying.

"It's my mom she had a really bad fall and now she's dead and there's now also a chance that my kid could fucking die from this shit that I gave to him. I don't know what to do Amanda...I can't do this tour or music anymore." I managed to say as I was basically in tears. "But I'll do my best to pull out of this tour okay? I gotta go speak to them but I love you." I said standing up and hanging up and walking back out into the main area.

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"We gotta speak to everyone with the label as they told Josh that if he drops out they drop the band and hey are you okay?" Matt said as I shook my head wrapping my arms around myself. "I need to speak to everyone including the crew now." He moved out of the way as everyone was in the bus as I sighed leaning against the table preparing myself mentally to say what has happened. "What happened Josh?" Melvin spoke up as I looked around at everyone. "I have to drop out of the tour...so this may mean that the band might be let go of the label. The main reason as to why as my kid is very sick with um...stomach cancer and he has to have surgery so I need to be with him. Plus I have to plan a funeral for my parents and I can't even think about performing mentally right now. So we need to come up with a plan if they let us go." Everyone just looked at me in shock as I pulled up the email on my laptop passing it around.