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23. make him promise

"farrah!" kayla's voice startled me. i realized i had fallen asleep on gus' shoulder. we agreed to just put on the tv for a little bit and hang out.

i missed him. despite what he did i missed him, really badly. he was my peace and my comfort.

"it's fine kay" i told her, "what are you doing with him?" she asked, she seemed honestly pissed at me.

the commotion awoke gus. "huh" he mumbled as he woke up. "leave her alone" kayla told him.

"kayla" i scolded her.

"kay, we've talked about it. we're adults. we're working on it and we're gonna get past this okay?" i told her.

"it's not okay! he fucking cheated on you he's a douchebag!" she yelled like he wasn't right there.

"kayla this isn't your relationship. i understand where you're coming from but you have to trust me okay" i tried to calm her down.

"i'm sorry kayla, i really didn't mean to hurt your sister. i fucked up and i'm gonna do better i promise. id be a fool to lose the best gift live had ever given me" gus spoke up.

i thought it was cute that he cared enough to tell kayla his feelings too. he knew she was important to me.

"i know you think i suck, i don't blame you. i do suck, but im not gonna suck anymore" he continued.

kayla didn't really say much, just pursing her lips.

"do you wanna hit me?" he asked, "yeah, kinda" she rolled her eyes. "do it, slap me" he egged her on.

"kayla, gus, don-" before i could finish kayla didn't hesitate to backhand him across the cheek.

"i deserved that" he said.

i chuckled, it was kind of funny, he did deserve it.

"sorry" kayla laughed, "that was pretty hard"

"promise you're never gonna do anything like that ever again?" kayla asked him

"i promise kid. don't worry" he said

"farrah, make him promise"  she said, looking to me

"promise?" i asked him

"promise baby, promise" he said, taking my hand.

"good. because you don't actually suck" kayla told him, "by the way i'm keeping gta"

"you got it" he said, he knew he wasn't in any kind of position to argue about anything

kay disappeared into the kitchen

"she's funny" gus said, "sorry about her" i laughed

"she's right about everything though" he said

"come here baby" he said, gesturing for me to come sit in his lap.

i sat straddled over his lap, i wrapped my arms around his shoulders, burying my face into his neck.

we sat like that for a few minutes, just enjoying being together again.

"gross" kayla said, "shut up" i said, getting off of gus.

"get a fucking room" she said, "we're just sitting here" i said

"let's go to bed though babe" i told him.

i really needed to get that new apartment soon.

we got into my room, i stripped down to my tshirt and underwear, climbing into bed.

"thank you" he said, "for what?" i asked

"being you, giving me another chance" he said

"you know. i really can't see myself with anyone else besides you" i told him, i really couldn't. i think that's why i took him back with limited hesitation really.

"good, cos im not going anywhere" he said, rolling over to spoon me.

"i really gotta find that new apartment" i said

"don't worry about it baby" he said, "im gonna worry about it" i said

"no, i mean let me take care of it. i told you ill take care of you boo" he told me

"gus i can't let you do that" i told him, "i want to" he said

"it's okay really, i can handle it" i told him, "baby im serious, you have so much on your plate. just let me help you a little" he insisted.

"okay" i said, just to appease him. i didn't need be help though, i really count handle it on my own.

"i'm gonna sleep, i have to go to the studio in the morning okay?" he said, "okay. ill see you after?" i asked

"of course"

wherever you are is my home you know i mean it
they say home is where the heart is and you're the reason mine is beating