Window to freedom °•Minsung•°

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Jisung left Minho's apartment with a heavy sigh.

He had really thought today would be the day they'd talk about it but once again...nope.

He could see it in Min's eyes, that he wanted to say something. He had been unsure for a second then he had called his name:

"Jisung"

His heart had dropped into his stomach at that.

"Is it time?" he had wondered as hope and dread mixed in his brain.

Minho had looked into his eyes, their noses almost touching in their cuddled up position on the couch.

"Mh?" Jisung had hummed, urging him to continue.

But Min's eyes had dropped to his lips and he had let out a trembling breath of defeat.

"Nothing" he had said playfully and pressed a kiss on his skin.

Jisung had been relieved and disappointed all the same.

Now, as he entered his own flat he thought of what was going on for the millionth time, feeling like a whole boulder was pressing down on his shoulders.

"This situation is stressing me out" he realised.

"Hey, Ji" Chan called cheerfully from the kitchen:

"Did you guys finally talk?"

Chan knew everything.

Jisung had tried and suceeded for a whole month in not telling him but Chan really only wanted the best for him and at the hundreth attempt at talking him into revealing the truth Jisung had cracked.

"No" he grumbled, following the sound of his voice.

"Oh, Ji..." Chan sighed:
"You know you have to clear things up eventually..."

"That's true" Jeongin added from his spot at the kitchen table, holding a pokemon manga:

"Miscommunication always ends badly"

"Well said, Innie" Chan ruffled his hair and Jeongin looked up at him with fake disgust.

Jisung barely had the time to smile at the scene before remembering what they were discussing. Glum filled him.

"It's just that I know he has a wife but he doesn't know that I know and it's messy and... I don't know"

"Huh?? I understood maybe two words out of all that" Jeongin said with confused eyes.

Chan instead seemed to be thinking on it:

"Ji I'm just scared that well... he might be...using you"

"WHAT!? Using me!? For what??"

"Well, for sex of course" Chan said simply.

Jeongin seemed to light up:
"That actually makes sense"

"No, it doesn't!" Jisung exclaimed, heated.

"It does, though" Jeongin doubled down with his eyebrows furrowed:
"Maybe he married this woman because of his family or because he felt that he had to but he actually..."

"....isn't attracted to her. So he's using you as a rebound but still keeping her because it's easier to be in a hetero facing relationship" Chan concluded Innie's thought.

Jisung shut his eyes tight. He didn't want to hear any of this.

"...or maybe he does kind of love her, he also loves the thrill of cheating though, apparently" Jeongin scoffed.

Jisung was shaking. He needed some time to process all this, it was all so awful, he-

"My head is spinning" he announced.

Instantly Chan made him lie down on the couch, ready with sugar packets and comforting words.

"I'm sorry" Chan said when he felt better.

"Yeah, me too" Jeongin followed.

"We're just worried, Ji, is all. We want you to be in a happy relationship. A healthy one, with no third party involved or secrets to be kept from eachother or shit like that." Chan explained.

"I think you should consider dumping him" Innie shrugged.

Jisung's eyes widened. Dumping...?
Minho? His heart clenched. He didn't know if he could do that.

"Well if things continue this way, I agree. You can't let him use you this way, Jisung. You deserve better..." was saying Chan.

After that, he tuned out.

This was too much.

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