Leal

24.

(AN - I have become a new person since Sunday.

I FUCKING WON AT WEMBLEY.

I got Us and she only went and pulled out Gracie motherfucking Abrams (my baby) and then goes and plays Out of the Woods x Is it Over Now x CLEAN.

CLEAN.

DEDEDEDEDDEAD.

ESP BC 1989 IS MY FAV ALBIM AND I SAID TO MY BROTHERS GF THAT TOOK ME THAT I HOPED ONE OF THE SONGS WOULD BE A 1989 ONE IF SHE DID A MASHUP.

WHEN I TELL YOU I SCREAMED.

I actually lost my voice at the beginning of fearless. Yeah.

But I've got severe post-concert depression. All I'm thinking about is how at this time on Sunday (19:50) Taylor Swift has been performing for an hour and twenty minutes.)

(GUYS WE JUST MADE IT TO 1K VOTES AND 20K READS)

Turns out having six brothers apparently wasn't enough family for me. And I've got millions of cousins waiting to meet me tonight.

Woohoo. Not.

On top of that, apparently these cousins have parents (who even has those nowadays?) who are desperate to meet me today. As well as that, I have two grandparents.

So, that's a lot of family that apparently know me, but I don't know them.

Which I know, from my recent experiences, is very awkward for me.

However, it could not be avoided - despite my attempts - as Giovanni said that I 'couldn't avoid it forever' and 'if I didn't meet them now I'd only have to meet them later'.

I could've just left it for later-me to deal with.

Which is what I said to Giovanni, but apparently that wasn't a solution.

Then when I brought up my 'I'm just a girl' argument, I had the door shut in my face after a whole speech on how I'm way more than just a teenage girl.

So I'm currently stood in my wardrobe, getting myself dressed for this dinner.

Woohoo. Not.

I want to dress kind of smart-casual in order to give off a good impression, but not an up-tight one.

Why is meeting people so complicated? Like for what reason?

I force myself into a brown bodycon dress, knowing that if I didn't start getting ready now, I just won't ever get myself ready at all.