His Special Mate

Lola Pov

I woke up to Caine rubbing circles on my stomach and looking at me in awe. I placed my hand on top of his and gave him a soft smile. He leaned forward and gave me a slow, meaningful kiss. "I can't believe we're going to have a little us." His smile slowly went away, and then my heart ached. I lifted myself up and reached for him. "What's wrong?" I asked him before he grabbed my hand and pulled himself to my chest. It was almost like I could feel what he was feeling, and it didn't feel good.

"Nothings wrong." He tried to lie. I leaned back and lifted a brow. "Don't lie to me, Caine; I can feel that something is wrong with you." He looked at me, confused at first, then smirked. "The damn mate bond won't let me feel in peace." He told me before placing his hand back on my stomach. That uneasy feeling came back, and I laid my hand on top of his. "You didn't mention this part about the mate bond, and I would've figured it out without the bond." I told him before rolling my eyes. "But seriously, tell me what's wrong." He shook his head as if he were trying to forget, but sighed in defeat.

"I didn't mention that part of the bond because I didn't know if you'd be able to experience that since you're not a wolf. We're now one. You feel what I feel, whether it's mentally, emotionally, or physically. The same applies to me for you." He told me before going silent. I waited a bit to see if he was going to tell me what was wrong, because I knew damn well that wasn't it. After a minute of silence, I grew irritated and spoke. "Boy, if you don't tell me what the hell is wrong with you, I know something." I looked at him pointedly, and he smiled.

"Okay Mama." He told me while giving a cheeky smile, then took a deep breath. I playfully hit his hand, then gave him a reassuring grin. "I know I shouldn't feel this way, but part of me is jealous and empty. I have you, and I'm grateful for that—so grateful, but... our baby only has me when it comes to my side of the family. My mom is gone, my dad is gone, and most of my uncles, aunts, and cousins live their own lives outside of here; I rarely see them myself, and only a handful lives in my pack." He let his head drop, then ran his hands through his hair.

I placed my hands on each side of his face and lifted his head. "Thank you for telling me how you feel." I told him. "I understand h--." Before I could finish, he pulled away from me and stood up. "You can't understand how I feel, Lola! You have a close family that loves you and has never turned their back on you! Your mom never thought to kill you and your dad so she could rule with someone else! She saved you and sent you to a whole other country to protect you. Our child will have your family, not mine, so don't tell me that you understand when you have it made, because you don't understand Lola." I was shocked.

He didn't even know what I was going to say before he spazzed out. I know these past few months have been a lot on him, but to take it out on me when I've been nothing but good to him is crazy. What's even crazier is that Caine has never yelled at me, so this hurts... a lot. "Don't raise your damn voice at me, Caine. You don't even know what I was going to say to you. I understand—"

"Lola, you don't understand! You don't get it, so stop saying you understand because you don't! I don't want pity from you! Help me in another way or say something." He was red in the face and breathing heavily, but that didn't stop me from speaking my mind.

"In another way? Another way, like, what? So you want me to be toxic? You want me not to care because you feel I don't relate? What the fuck kind of stupid shit is that? I've always been here for you! Why would you want me to ignore how you feel now? I've never done that." I can't believe this is something he would even be mad at me about. He threw his head back, then slid his hands down his face.

"No, that's not what I'm saying. I shouldn't have told you how I felt." I got up from the bed and stood in front of him. The way he just switched up confused and shocked the hell out of me.

"I felt through the bond that something was wrong with you; you couldn't hide it if you wanted to. We're one, remember." I reminded him before folding my arms and waiting for his response.

"That's the problem. I'm my own person. Some things I like to sit on and process how they make me feel before coming to you about them. I shouldn't be forced to tell you everything. I knew you couldn't relate, which is—"

"I don't have to relate to understand how you're feeling! I didn't know that I'd feel everything that you felt; you could've communicated that with me. You don't get to tell me that we're one, then throw in my face that you're your own person." I told him.

"Me trying to ignore your question wasn't communication? And we are one; you know what I meant." I saw red.

"No, I don't know what you meant! You're a grown ass man! Why do I have to remind you to use your words and communicate? Obviously, you ignoring me made me more concerned. You know what, fuck it, get out!" He gave me a shocked look before reaching for my hand. I pulled away, then pointed at the door. "Get out!" He frowned at me before turning around and heading to the door. Why'd he choose now to show me he was an asshole.

I needed to relax, so I called T and asked if she wanted to go eat and then shop, and thankfully she said yes. I made myself a bath and thought about everything that just happened. We had a great night last night, but our morning ruined that for me. I pulled out my fluffy cream three-piece set and my ugg slides to go with.

I grabbed my bag, then headed out to meet T. I ran into Mace and Caine on my way out. I greeted Mace and ignored Caine when he asked where I was going. Mace informed him where I was going, and he nodded his head at me, as if I were asking for permission. I ignored him and made my way to the front door.

T stood outside her car, waiting for me. "Hey sis, you look cute." I thanked her, then gave her a hug before getting in the car. "We haven't been out in forever; I thought you were too busy these days." She looked at me with a brow lifted, and I caved in. "Me and Caine are fighting, and I needed a break." She looked at me, confused. "What! Why are y'all fighting?"

"Basically, he didn't communicate like an adult, and I kept asking him what was wrong until he would tell me. He felt I didn't understand him because I couldn't relate, and that pissed him off." I looked out the window and slumped down in my seat. "Girl, that sounds like a fake ass reason to be mad, but I'll let you handle that." She told me before pulling into the diner. "It does, doesn't it?"

We got out of the car and made our way inside. I saw Mark sitting at a booth by the window and squealed. "Mark, what are you doing here? I mean, how did you get here? The town has a glamour over it." He gave me a hug, then pointed at T. "I stayed the night with her last night." I looked at them both and crossed my arms. "So y'all didn't think to invite me?"

"We went to your room to get you, but you were occupied." Mark bumped shoulders with T, then started laughing. I waved them away, then took my sweater off before getting in the booth. I looked up to find T and Mark looking at me in disgust. "What's wrong?" I asked them. "Girl, what the fuck is on your neck? Did you get bit by something?" Mark leaned in to take a closer look, then T gasped. "Girl! You did that mating thing, didn't you?" T asked me before mimicking Mark. I nodded. "Oh, we have a lot to talk about."

T bombarded me with a million questions while we ate. I ended up telling them about me being pregnant and how they had to keep it a secret

HEY YALL!! I was talking with one of the readers and now I have to know if any of y'all have had a buzzball. If so how many did you drink until you realized you were gone? 🤣🤣 I said five but that was my first time trying them and I didn't know they packed a punch! 🤦🏾‍♀️😂😂 Also don't forget to vote and leave a comment! I love reading the comments y'all crack me up!