Winter Falls, Summer Springs

Learn To Accept

Trigger Warnings : mentions of nightmare, closed-minded family, sexism, abuse.

Chan didn't know why his heart was so stubborn.

His mind wasn't better.

How did it get worse ?

Well, it was something logical in some way.

Minho had been so caring and understanding, no wonder his heart fell for him.

(But his heart had always been weak to people caring about him.)

It was surprising though. For his heart to be able to love an Alpha after everything he went through. He knew Changbin was an Alpha, but it was different with him. He knew the man for so long that he could trust him with his life.

But Minho was... new for him.

Kinda cute and kinda tsundere. He liked to threaten people he cared about and was always there when he felt one of them was feeling down. The way he teased them was mischievous but endearing. Chan couldn't say the opposite.

He didn't even want to think of Hyunjin and Felix, both Omegas so adorable he could die for. They were so kind and safe. It might be his Head Omega side that couldn't help but like their presences.

And Hyunjin and Seungmin boxing ? Really ? He'd tried so hard to not glance at them, but it was something he couldn't fight. Especially when both were sweating so prettily ? Who even sweat like this ? And they both we're so serious, just so endearing.

Well, he was sure it was just affection and adoration... right ?

He also needed to be careful around Changbin and Jisung, he's already too weak for them.

There was only Jeongin he didn't have a proper moment with. Jeongin also looked shyer than he thought around him. Was he because he was new ?

Chan really wanted to spend more time with him though.

Chan didn't know the exact reason, but well, it wasn't like any of them would love him in that way.

He stared at nothing in particular, nosing Hyunjin's back.

He remembered vaguely how he had asked Hyunjin to sleep with him for the night and he flushed in embarrassment as he recalled his stuttering ass and the fear of falling asleep to see his mother—

Chan bit his tongue hard, shutting his eyes tight and pressed himself more against the Omega, drowning himself in honey.

Why was it coming back now ?

He clenched his jaw before shifting to sit on the bed, cold sweat starting to take his back and the nausea made his heart weak.

He'd been trying so hard to forget her but now that he had one nightmare, it was back at full strength, the cage of the beast wide open to end him.

And he couldn't do anything about it.

He looked at Minho's bed and found it empty. He glanced back at Hyunjin completely passed out on the bed before shifting a bit to bring his bag closer and take his pills with his water bottle.

The only way for him to not think of her was by drowning himself in work and he'd gladly do that—

"Hyung ?"

— Chan choked for a second, earning a small snort from the younger who started rubbing his back in comfort, "You good ?"

The older coughed one last time as he nodded. He looked at Hyunjin with a smile, he hoped his face wasn't pale, "Got thirsty."