I like my Kookie with Suga

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Yoongi PoV

Namjoon had left in a hurry, the table was set, dinner cooked, the cat combed, the dog walked, both fed and stroked into a food coma and now I was sitting on the sofa waiting for the other two to come home later today. Bam was lying next to me, his head on my knee, while I looked around. Everything was perfectly tidy, not a speck of dust, the books were sorted and that made me sigh with pleasure. Jungkook had done a really good job here, taking every instruction from Y/N to heart and implementing it, just so it didn't stress me out. Surprisingly, apart from the spoon incident, he hadn't even disturbed my well-being since we had decided that he should live with us. On the contrary, looking after him was a very fulfilling pastime and maybe he could give me inspiration for a new book, plus I just had to help him, the inner urge was just too great and Jungkook was too cute. That Y/N was a little pissed... or irritated that I wasn't reacting jealously was something I was well aware of, but I skillfully ignored it. It was not for nothing that I was always able to look at situations from a distance and from a neutral perspective, even if they concerned me. My emotions could be very strong, degenerate in one direction or another, but there was no such thing as "mild" anger, jealousy or it's ok. I didn't know such feelings, they were neutral for me. The all or nothing principle applied... Either I loved something very much, found something very funny, very sad, very annoying, very beautiful... without the word very in front of it, all emotions were simply imperceptible. If I hadn't liked Jungkook a lot since the beginning, I might have been very angry with him, but as it was... It was this Void inside me that kept me calm. Humming quietly to myself, I tapped my foot to the beat and looked out of the large, floor-to-ceiling window next to the balcony door at the clouds. As I looked at their shapes, new images kept popping up in them, I thought about new adventures these figures could have and became so caught up in them that I only returned to reality when it got so dark that I could barely make out the clouds. I looked sulkily at the door and was about to take out my cell phone to ask Y/N when they would be back when I heard the door opener beep. Excited, I jumped up but slowed my steps when I saw Jungkook's eyes were all red from crying while Y/N looked completely exhausted.

"Baby... go... Go lay in the tub for an hour, I'll take care of Jungkook." I gave her a kiss and pushed her gently towards the bedroom so she could get something to change into.

"Thanks..." she mumbled and smiled slightly, then I took Jungkook's hand and pulled him with me to the sofa, where Bam lifted his head and then wagged his tail when he saw his master, but then immediately went back to sleep. I guess my 6KM walk had worn him out a bit.

"Hey, Kookie... is... is everything okay?" I asked him gently, hoping not to ask or say anything wrong so I wouldn't upset him even more.

"Yeah hyung... it was just... it's always so hard to realize things and ask myself why I did that, why I didn't see anything wrong in it... the problem is... I often don't understand it while I'm doing it, but then once I realize what the consequences are, especially for people I love...it's hard.... so hard...I don't want to hurt you... Hyung... I don't want to hurt you... I just want to be with you..." again the tears streamed down his already puffy cheeks and, even though I didn't know what to say... I just pulled him into my arms and let him cry on my shoulder... at least I was good at that...