I Only Know How To Love

19: Jack

"I hope I do good in the actual thing. I tanked in the rehearsal," Alexa tells me. She still hasn't forgiven me for killing Anika, but she's doing good as long as I don't kill anyone. I haven't killed anyone ever since I turned Snow. It was now The Celebration of the Arts, and we had to perform. "No you were good," I tell her, putting my bag of clothes on the floor. The last time I saw Cashmere was last week, leaving in the afternoon with some person who I didn't know. Cashmere seems to be getting fat. Oh well, I guess she's not getting any dick action either way. "I'm the one who messed up," Allison had told, bringing me back to the scene. "None of you guys did badly. If there was one person who messed up, it would be Cashmere," Jocelyn had told. I couldn't agree more with her.

"That's actually very rude of you to say," Allison had said. I didn't find it rude. "No, it's true. She messed up pretty badly," I tell them. It was true, Cashmere was horrible in the rehearsal. "You seriously thought that I was being serious?" Jocelyn had asked. "Yeah," I tell her. "What is wrong with you? I was joking. Why can't you take a hint?" Jocelyn had asked. I didn't realize that she was joking. "I'm sorry," I told her before she headed over to Elaine. "Why are you so mean to Cashmere?" Allison had asked. "It's hard to explain," I tell her, hoping that maybe she'll listen to my story now. "Everything with you is hard to explain," Allison tells me before heading over to Janis, leaving me with Alexa. "I heard of something that happened a while ago with Cashmere," Alexa started. I was willing to hear anything about Cashmere, so I could use it against her. "What is it?" I ask her. "She was once suicidal and actually tried to. Why else do you think we had that lockdown?" She told me. I remember it was on a Wednesday at the third block. I did not know that it was because of Cashmere. That is so cool.

"Why didn't you tell me back then?" I asked her. "Probably because I didn't know who to tell," she tells me. "That would make the most sense," I said as Cashmere came into the room. "Why do you ask?" She asked. "So then I could use something against her," I tell Allison while keeping an eye on Cashmere. "Okay, something is clearly wrong with you," Allison said before going up to Janis. Cashmere had grabbed her clothes, and I followed her to the bathroom. She was changing into her clothes for All City, and I stayed outside of the bathroom until I heard the stall door open and she walked to the sink. "Jack, what are you doing?" She asks when I walk in and she sees me blocking the exit. "I just found out something interesting from Alexa," I start off. "What are you talking about?" She asks. Like she doesn't know where I'm going with this. "Remember when you had tried to commit suicide?" I ask her. "Yeah I do," she told, trying to get the words out. "I want you to do it again, and this time, actually die," I tell her. In a sense she doesn't belong here. "Why?" She asked, about to cry. "Because Cashmere, you don't belong here. You are an outsider to this world. I really don't know why you're still here," I tell her, after locking the front door. "You're just cruel Jack. Cruel and ruthless and mean. And a stubborn jackass I might add," she tells me. That's it. "No one calls me a stubborn jackass except for myself against others," I tell her, grabbing her by the arm.

Pressing her against the wall, I lowered her pants and panties, and forced myself into her. "No one calls me a stubborn jackass," I tell her by forcefully inserting myself into her with every syllable, leaving my dick inside of her in the last syllable. "Jack, why must you always rape me?" She asked, trying to get through the pain. "How else am I going to get you to listen? In a normal conversation? Never, you'd run away," I tell her, turning her around to face me, grabbing her arms. "That's because I'm afraid of you," she tells me. "You should be," I tell her before I push her onto the ground. She landed on her head and went unconscious. Just the state she needed to be in. I did up my pants, and then did up Cashmere's. I leave the bathroom, and I see Ben there. "You won't be able to wake her up by the way," I tell him before walking away.