Devon's Decision's

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 Before he could answer or say anything the kids ran up and the waiter arrived with our food.

"Papa, you are crying, what's wrong?" Grace asks immediately on high alert.

"Nothings wrong. I had some news from the doctor. I was just telling Angelo. You see, I'm pregnant. With twins. That's great right?" I waited to see. Michael seemed interested but I could see that Grace was still worried about me. The four of us just sat in silence for a minute.

"So I'm going to be a big brother?"

"Yes. Excited?"

"Yeah, that's awesome." He declares then digs into the popcorn chicken he got.

"Grace? What do you think?"

"Whose baby is it?"

"Um, Andy is their father. Would you rather have sisters, brothers, or one of each?"

"One of each. Does Andy know yet?"

"No. I just found out today at the doctor. You guys are the first I've told. The Doc was going to tell Alpha for me. I'll see Andy tomorrow when we get to the party. I can tell him then. Next year we can bring them to the zoo." I waited but she still stared at me. "Grace? Anything to say about this?"

"I don't know. It's cool I guess. Are you going to pick a mate since you are pregnant?" Wow there was a direction I didn't figure I'd get questions on.

"Not yet. It's too soon to make any decisions." She nods and starts eating her burger.

Despite wanting to have more fun my revelation sort of weighed on everyone. We stayed at the zoo through them turning on all the decorative lights then we headed home. Both kids were exhausted so it was baths, pajamas and they curled into her bed and watched a movie on my tablet that they borrowed. With them down for the night Angelo sat with me in the living room. The TV played quietly on some food show. I was curled at one end of the sofa while Angelo sat in the middle. He was leaned back his hands and arms just laying loose in his lap. He stared at the coffee table and thinking I assumed. My fear at the moment was that the first guy to ever really want me. The first guy I really cared for. I knew I'd survive it if he changed his mind about me. But it would hurt, really badly. The silence was making my chest hurt. The longer he was silent the longer I wondered if he was wondering how to let me down gently. Panic, grief, even devastation, it all was rolling over and over inside of me. It began to swell. A sob broke out and another followed. Tears flooded my cheeks and I shook as I cried. Two strong arms were around me suddenly. I was being rocked.

"Sweet baby, shh, it's okay. I'm right here. It'll be okay. Why are you crying like this?" I wasn't sure what to say. "Dev, baby what's wrong?"

"I'm s-sorry I'm pregnant. You want to court me, to be my mate and here I am pregnant with someone else's babies. I don't blame you if you change your mind about me. It's not right to ask you to raise babies that aren't yours. He was right, I'm just a whore, I'm not good enough for you, I..."

"Stop that right now. Sweet baby, this is not a bad thing. Why would you think I was going to change my mind about you?"

"Because, you are a jealous man. You don't like sharing with Jake, you don't like knowing that Andy had me first. You've been quiet since the moment I told you I was pregnant. Since we got home you haven't looked at me or talked to me."

"Sweet baby, I am just processing it. I'm not going anywhere, and do not call yourself a whore. Dev, it's just out of the blue, and twins. That takes a whole lot of thinking. I am here, until you tell me that you don't want me, I am going to be right here." He wraps me in his arms. After a moment to calm I am tipped back into his arm the other scoops under my knees and with me in his arms he stands.