Devon's Decision's

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Once again I find myself waking with a little body against me. I give a sigh and look down at Michael. He hadn't been this clingy in years. I knew that dating was probably part of the problem, and I was sure that finding out I was having twins made it worse. At least Grace wasn't plastered to me too. I could feel from the large hot body it was Jake behind me. I run my fingers through my sons hair. It was still baby soft. I kept it only a couple inches long. When he got older he could decide for himself how he wanted to keep his hair.

"He showed up in the middle of the night." The voice from behind me makes me jump. I didn't know he was awake. "He said he had a bad dream. He's been climbing into your bed a few times lately. Right?"

"Yes. I know the move, the dating, everything is new and I think it's too much all at once. Now I'm adding new siblings. Do you think he'll be alright?"

"Yes. As time goes on he'll settle and be alright. I bet he'll be one of those protective brothers." He raises up onto an elbow to look down at me. His hand reaches over and cups Michael's head. "I'm going to guess you have one of each. Or two girls."

"Not two boys?"

"No. Just doesn't seem like that'll be your luck Rabbit. I figure Grace will go full on mama bear with the twins. No one touches them unless they want bit."

"I can see that. What time is it, they need to get to school."

"No need. School was canceled today. One of the main water pipes broke flooding the entire building. It'll take days to clean up and weeks to fix. In the mean time they are going to do online classes. Today and tomorrow are off. They'll send out emails on how to start it up Wednesday. It'll be a half credit day to get everyone going. I know you'll go straight to worry about work with that. I'm offering the rec room down stairs. We've got tables and some extra laptops and desk tops. Plenty of headphones. So, you can bring the kids here. They can log on downstairs and do their work while you work and be right here if you need them or they need you."

"Michael will love that I'm right here and Grace will be happy to be able to play all evening here."

"I saw Angelo earlier when I got up. Told him you'd be around here. He was grinning. You are going to be pampered around here I think. Not to mention the kids will be spoiled with everyone's attention." I wiggle till I'm on my back and can look up at him easier. Why did it seem so natural to be right here with him, my son snuggled with us. Why did I feel so comfortable at letting him just decide things and take over. It wasn't just that he was an Alpha, or my Alpha. I trusted him to keep me safe, keep my kids safe. I trusted him not to abuse the trust I had in him. So why did I have issues with him regretting mating me later? But thinking the question I realized the answer. I was worried because I did care for him a great deal and if I claimed him and he took it back later it would devastate me. So I was hesitant going in. Was that why I hesitated with Angelo too? For some reason that didn't feel like it was the right answer.

"You know there are times you look at me and your eyes just talk volumes."

"What do they say?" He bent and kissed my lips lightly.

"That you are falling in love with me. That it worries and maybe even scares you a little. They tell me that you trust me completely but are afraid to get your heart broken. They are saying right now that I have hit too close and you aren't sure about that. I know you care for me deeply, I can tell at times that it feels like love. I won't rush you. You need to know Angelo and if you can or do feel the same or similar with him." All I do is nod. "Want breakfast? We can leave the little cuddle puppy to sleep a little more."

"Sure." Carefully I slide from the bed and we leave Michael to sleep some more. With some borrowed clothes from him we head to the kitchen. I come to an abrupt halt in the kitchen doorway. At the counter I see Angelo, but what made my heart stop and my gut clench is that some female had her hands all over him. They slid over his entire bared upper body. Even over his hips and squeezed his ass. It was betrayal that flooded my body. He was courting me. He said he loved me. How could he stand there and let her do that if he loved me.

"Angelo!" Came a deep snap from Jake. Angelo gave a jerk and his eyes darted to his Alpha.

"Alpha? Something wrong?" Jake looked down at me then at the female touching Angelo.

"I think before you let her rub all over you like that you need to withdraw from your courting of Devon."

"What?" He was confused. He looked at me looked at her, her hands and I saw realization dawn. He jumped away from her like he was a scalded. "Oh fuck!" He sprinted for me and I stepped sideways into Jake seeking his comfort.

"Sweet baby, no. It's not like that. She's a tease. She knows I'm taken. We were talking about how great you were this morning. She's one of those touchy wolves who likes the grooming and touches. I swear I never once thought of it as more then that because of you and how much I love you. It really means nothing more then comfort of pack being close. Please, I swear that is all it is." The female steps around his shoulder.

"Sorry Devon, I know how that looked but he is telling the truth. I... I was not in a good position when I joined this pack after being tossed from the one I grew up in. They were hurtful and neglectful. When I found that this pack wasn't like that, that affection and gentle comfortable touching was the norm. I sort of glommed onto that. I like touching them and letting it be a balm to old scars. I know he's taken. I swear he is that guy who would never even think of straying. I promise that's the truth." Some of the pack were nodding in agreement.

"I... I see." Angelo held out his arms. I hesitated but stepped into them letting him hug me tight.

"Sweet baby. I'd never stray. Not when I have the best of the best right here in my arms." I heard the sincerity in his voice and it helped the panic and hurt subside.

"Why don't you sit with Dev, I'll help finish breakfast." Jake says. His voice is a little hard. Angelo takes me over to the end of the table and sits down with me in his lap. He's holding me tightly.

"Dev, I'm so sorry. I know how it looked but, I love you. You believe me right?" I nod and give a small smile.

"I believe you. It just caught me off guard." Lifting my hand he kisses the back then kisses my lips.

"I've got to head to work after breakfast but if you need anything just give me a ring."

"Okay." After breakfast he heads to work, and I head to the office to work as well. I hoped he'd be a little more careful with who he is affectionate with.