The Rockstar and The Graduate//L.A. Guns •Kelly Nickels•

Too Soon

It's been a few days since our drunk shenanigans. I was at home, Janey at hers, and Kelly doing whatever.

I was in my room cleaning it as I listened to Bringin' On the Heartbreak by Def Leppard.

***

I was at the store, getting beer, cigarettes and some stuff I wanted to get Laurie.

I was in an isle when someone said hey. I turned and saw a familiar looking dude. He started walking towards me. I was confused. Yeah his face looks familiar, but he was probably just one of those people who had that kind of face.

"It's Kelly, right?" He questioned. I furrowed my eyebrows. "Yeah, who are you?" I said, not hiding my confusion. "Oh, I'm Tod. I met you a few weeks ago at Laurie and I's high school." He replied.

It was all coming back to me now. This was Tod. Laurie's fucking exe.

"How are you and Laurie?" He questioned. I didn't see why he was interested in this, he was a fucking cheat and lost a good one. It wasn't really his goddamn business to know about Laurie and I.

"We're good." I said bluntly, wanting to get the hell out of here before I punched this fist-fucker.

"I'm surprised, I thought that slut would have ended up alone." He said. I was about to fucking kill this mother fucker. No one talks about or to Laurie like that.

"Careful, that's my goddamn fiancé you're talking about." I seethed as I pointed my finger at his chest roughly. He then laughed. "Ha! Fiancé, that's crazy, word on the streets is that she likes to sleep around. What do you think she does when she's not with you?" He explained.

I couldn't take his shit anymore so I punched him. I didn't end up getting the things I needed. I punched him and walked straight out the door. When I got to my bike, I couldn't help but fucking think.

Was Laurie really playing me? I mean I know we don't know each other that well, but she's nothing like any other girls I've met before.

I didn't know.

I went to her house. I wanted-I needed to know.

When I knocked she answered. She smiled at me, it quickly dropping when she saw my expression. "Kelly, what's wrong?" She questioned. I didn't say anything as I walked in and turned around to look at her.

***

"Have you cheated on me?" He asked out of no where. My eyes went wide and I looked at him still confused. "What the hell, no. You're the only one I need, the only one I want." I told him truthfully.

I am not a bitch and I am most definitely not the type of person to cheat on my significant other.

He didn't say anything, he just stared at me.

We were doing so well. I didn't want to have a fight. There wasn't any reasons as to why we would fight either. I didn't understand anything right now.

"Maybe...maybe this is too soon." He finally said as he looked away like he was disgusted with me. Had I done something wrong?

Neither one of us were yelling, so I decided to just speak calmly. "Kelly, just tell me what happened. Obviously something had to of made you ask these questions." I stated.

"Someone told me you were a slut and that you cheat everyone and are just using me." Kelly stated. My eyes went wide. I was far from that.

Based on the other girls I went to school with, I was a saint in some degrees.

Didn't do drugs, didn't sleep around, didn't get pregnant, hell I was still virgin.

I crossed my arms. "Who told you those awful untrue things?" I questioned, wanting to know who the fuck would want to tell my fiancé -my future husband that I was sleeping around.

He finally looked at me again. "I-I was at the store. Was gunna get cigarettes, beer, and some stuff you'd like. But then I ran into an ass hat." He stated. At the thought of Kelly buying stuff for me because he thought I'd like it, I smiled eternally as my seriousness was still written all over my body language and my face.

"Who?" I asked, wanting him to cut to the chase already. He then looked away from me.

Did he seriously not trust me? I mean If the roles were reversed, I wouldn't trust him all that much either right then. I let it slide.

"Tod." Is all he said. My eternal smile and happiness burned away, leaving a bitter taste on my tongue just by hearing his name even though I am not the one who said it.

"What the fuck." I said out loud, not at all feigning my anger and annoyance that somehow some fucking fucked up way, Tod still managed to piss me the fuck off.

"I'm telling you right now, that I've never slept around and I don't fucking plan to start." I told him 100% honest. He looked at me a certain way, and it was a look I've seen before.

I knew it all too well. We were about to have an argument. "I just, I don't fucking know what to believe, Laurie!" He said as he raised his voice. Good, both of us were pissed off.

May not be at the same things, but it was something. "God, I'd never do that shit. If anyone was to do that shit, it would be Tod. Dude is a total douche. He cheated on me our whole fucking relationship!" I defended, now also yelling.

Kelly shook his head. "I still don't know!" He yelled. I then shook my head as I felt my eyes prick with tears of what I was about to say.

"If you don't believe me, Kelly, or trust me at all. Then yeah, this is too soon. You. Me. Us. This relationship, this ring, this engagement. If you can't trust me or my word...then I can't trust you our yours either." I told him honestly.

Hurt my heart to do it to. We just got each other again.

And now we were both saying goodbye, again.

He looked at me with wide eyes. It looked like he was about to cry. He opened his mouth to say something but closed it again.

"Yeah...too soon." Is all he said as he diverted eye contact with me and then walked out the door without another word.

And then everything's back to falling the fuck apart.

Fuck.