The Rockstar and The Graduate//L.A. Guns •Kelly Nickels•

Too Young

I know I vowed to myself a while ago that I wouldn't be the type of girl who let a breakup really bring her down and depressed.

But this was Kelly.

I don't know if there's such a thing as fate or destiny, but if there is, I'm pretty certain that Kelly and I are destined for each other.

I hadn't been myself at all. Everything happened just two days ago, and I of course kept Janey updated through very long phone calls.

I decided I had to do something. The choice that I was making probably was a rash decision, but fuck it. I got up out of my bed and walked out of my room and over to the dining room table.

The acceptance letter from Hartford University still there.

I picked it up and looked at it as I walked over to the phone.

"Hello?" The voice spoke. "Hey, Janey...you want to go to Hartford with me?" I asked her. "Connecticut?!" She questioned loudly like I was insane. "Yes, that Hartford." I informed her.

The line went silent for a minute. "Alright, fuck it." She said. I said I'd be at her house in a little bit. I packed some clothes, my Walkman, some cassettes, and basic necessities.

I turned around to leave when I noticed the ring that Kelly gave me when we got engaged.

I took it off the day our fight happened and right after he left. I walked over to my nightstand and picked it up. I wasn't going to put it back on my finger, even though I really wanted to.

So, instead I took an old necklace out of my jewelry box and put the ring on it.

It wasn't 100 percent the same, but it was better.

I then went to the kitchen and wrote my parents a note so they wouldn't flip when I just went missing without a trace.

Went to visit Hartford University. Janey came with. Be back in a week.
— Laurie

I then was off to get my best friend.

We then started down the road. It would be a fucking long one too.

***

I fucking hated myself. I don't know why I did that shit. I shouldn't have listened to Tod. And I most definitely shouldn't have believed a word that prick said.

I broke Laurie's heart, and I broke mine too. The band had no idea about it, just that I was down in the dumps about whatever.

Affected my song writing too.

The guys and I were in the studio working on our very first album, Cocked & Loaded.

I hated every song I wrote. I decided I couldn't anymore. I put my bass down and looked at the guys. "Listen, I gotta go." I told them. They all asked why and I lied and told them I was supposed to meet Laurie.

I mean it was kind of a lie. They all said they'd see me later and I nodded. I then hopped on my bike and drove to Laurie's.

I was already in a rush, but when I got to Laurie's and pulled into the driveway: I didn't even notice that her car wasn't there.

I turned my bike off and practically sprinted to the fucking front door. I knocked frantically.

I was about to knock again when the door opened. Before I could see the person's face for a split second I thought it would be Laurie, but reality was back in a blink of an eye.

It was Laurie's mom. Mrs. Samston.

"Kelly, are you alright?" She questioned with concern and furrowed eyebrows. I didn't answer her question. "Is Laurie home?" I asked, cutting right to the chase.

She shook her head. "She left earlier, she's going to visit Hartford University with Janey." Mrs. Samston replied. "Damn." I mumbled as I shook my head while simultaneously going to look down.

"Did something happen between you too?" She asked concerned. I looked at her and nodded. "Yeah. Yeah, and now trying to make things right. Thanks Mrs. Samston." I said as I turned to leave.

I didn't hear what she said to me as I walked away. Guess I was going on a little spontaneous fucking road trip.

***

Janey and I had been on the road give or take 4 hours. We were currently at a gas station. Gas, snacks, beverages, and bathroom breaks.

When we were done, we were back on the road again. We didn't know where exactly we were until we saw the giant ass sign:

Welcome to Nevada

"This is gonna take for fucking ever." Janey groaned. I briefly looked away from the road and then to her. "You said it, sister." I replied, agreeing.

I had Janey put a cassette in a while ago. Dream On by Aerosmith was playing.

"What's with this weird fucking spontaneous trip to Hartford? You told me you weren't gonna go." Janey questioned. I sighed. "C'mon Jane, you know why." I told her honestly.

"Do I?" She questioned. I shrugged. "Look, alright. Whatever the fuck happened happened. But Kelly, I-I truly believed that I loved him. Then he goes and takes Tod's word before my own. His fucking fiancé."

"Do you still love him?" Janey questioned softly, getting that this subject was a sore one.

I shrugged again. "I don't know." And I meant that. I really didn't know if I still loved him or not. "Maybe...maybe it was too soon." I told her, repeating what Kelly had told me the other day.

Janey didn't say anything for little bit. "Too young." She said, using the same tone I did. I smiled a small smile that was more sorrowful than anything.

Yeah Janey and I talked on the phone about this shit, but now we were talking about it in person, in the car, on the way to fucking Hartford, Connecticut? It was different now. Maybe I was in denial, I don't know.

"Yeah, that too." I replied softly as I stopped at a red light. "Too Young." I said.